Does anyone with OCD not think they are the exception haha

It's difficult, sometimes I feel like I'm the only one who doesn't have OCD because of the symptoms, but I've been looking for tranquility and answers for years, I doubt that someone genuine will waste so much time on this for years, even, I feel that they would act secretly if the problem is what friends and family think, but it's that I feel that this is not who I was or who I want to be and at the same time I feel that I'm in a cycle, many things that today I perceive before didn't exist or I didn't worry, but sometimes you doubt that it's not OCD and you're in denial, but there you go back to know that it's not what you feel deep down

Just when I used to post stuff and was ignored I used to think that no one answered me because they didn't relate and that I was a monster and that everyone thought that about me , that I was the exception

It's difficult, sometimes I feel like I'm the only one who doesn't have OCD because of the symptoms, but I've been looking for tranquility and answers for years, I doubt that someone genuine will waste so much time on this for years, even, I feel that they would act secretly if the problem is what friends and family think, but it's that I feel that this is not who I was or who I want to be and at the same time I feel that I'm in a cycle, many things that today I perceive before didn't exist or I didn't worry, but sometimes you doubt that it's not OCD and you're in denial, but there you go back to know that it's not what you feel deep down

Yes I use to think that but do not anymore