Anonymous
- Date posted
- 2y
Weak
I don't think I'll be able to deal with this, I'm so scared that it's true, and I don't think I can manage this. I feel like I've lost myself, I'm so scared
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- 2y
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AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 2y
Yes! We did speak with one another yesterday! And yes, unfortunately, it is the same theme ☹️ I had to spend time with my brother that my OCD is centered around and I managed through it, but I'm so scared that I developed feelings or something and I'm not reacting the way I should as I'm not panicking and I feel like I want to act on these thoughts. It got so bad, I got suicidal thoughts
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 2y
@khmer0000000 Would you be willing to talk on Tiktok?
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 2y
@khmer0000000 Or we can continue talking here if that's what your most comfortable with!
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 2y
@khmer0000000 Would you still be willing to talk?
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 2y
@khmer0000000 No worries! How was your day?
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 2y
@khmer0000000 I'm glad to hear, I've managed to calm down somewhat from earlier, and beginning to focus on my show in hopes of relaxing
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 2y
@khmer0000000 If you don't mind me asking, can this theme be centered only around one person?
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 2y
@khmer0000000 I don't quite understand how to accept such intrusive thoughts, feelings, urges, ect. I know one way would be to acknowledge it, then move on with your day, but I've recently stopped quite literally everything because of these thoughts. I haven't been to school in two days, haven't been doing hobbies, and I barely leave my bed. It's just an utter disaster ☹️
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 2y
@khmer0000000 It in fact does, although I do not believe they're knowledgeable of OCD, but I do have a NOCD therapist with me! Unfortunately, she's on holiday until the 25th and then our appointment is on the 28th! Just trying to keep calm until then 😅👍
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 2y
@khmer0000000 It's so hard to do that when I've been severely depressed for two months 😅 but I'll do my best
RMO2023RMO2023
- Date posted
- 2y
The keyword here is "scared". You gotta face your fear. It won't go away until you are finally ready to just care less about how you feel.
RMO2023RMO2023
- Date posted
- 2y
Otherwise, a psychiatris can help.
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