Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

Weak

I don't think I'll be able to deal with this, I'm so scared that it's true, and I don't think I can manage this. I feel like I've lost myself, I'm so scared

"Pure" OCD

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Date posted: 2y

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Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

Yes! We did speak with one another yesterday! And yes, unfortunately, it is the same theme ☹️ I had to spend time with my brother that my OCD is centered around and I managed through it, but I'm so scared that I developed feelings or something and I'm not reacting the way I should as I'm not panicking and I feel like I want to act on these thoughts. It got so bad, I got suicidal thoughts

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

@khmer0000000 Would you be willing to talk on Tiktok?

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

@khmer0000000 Or we can continue talking here if that's what your most comfortable with!

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

@khmer0000000 Would you still be willing to talk?

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

@khmer0000000 No worries! How was your day?

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

@khmer0000000 I'm glad to hear, I've managed to calm down somewhat from earlier, and beginning to focus on my show in hopes of relaxing

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

@khmer0000000 If you don't mind me asking, can this theme be centered only around one person?

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

@khmer0000000 I don't quite understand how to accept such intrusive thoughts, feelings, urges, ect. I know one way would be to acknowledge it, then move on with your day, but I've recently stopped quite literally everything because of these thoughts. I haven't been to school in two days, haven't been doing hobbies, and I barely leave my bed. It's just an utter disaster ☹️

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

@khmer0000000 It in fact does, although I do not believe they're knowledgeable of OCD, but I do have a NOCD therapist with me! Unfortunately, she's on holiday until the 25th and then our appointment is on the 28th! Just trying to keep calm until then 😅👍

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

@khmer0000000 It's so hard to do that when I've been severely depressed for two months 😅 but I'll do my best

RMO2023

Date posted: 2y

The keyword here is "scared". You gotta face your fear. It won't go away until you are finally ready to just care less about how you feel.

RMO2023

Date posted: 2y

Otherwise, a psychiatris can help.

piercethetayy

Date posted: 25w

Rough day

I have hold back my tears . I’m trying so hard to play it off. I can’t think about it anything without on the verge of falling apart . I have no self control over my mind . I’m scared. Is this a psychosis . I have barely eaten in days . My stomach is growling but I have no appetite. Idk what’s going on . Normally if I have a rough week I can fight it but I can’t fight it this time. My biggest fear is loosing my bf. I’m spending the day with him and all I can do it think about what’s gonna happen when I leave .

Mariabae

Date posted: 22w

im scared

my thoughts are screaming at me telling me that i dont want my relationship anymore and that i realized i lost feelings. i have a beautiful relationship of two years with a beautiful boy that loves me dearly and i deal with this thoughs for a year and a half. Im so scared it feels so real im scared i have changed and my last therapy session made it worse she basically told me i have to realise the thoughts are true and stop lying to myself. And made me think i am so scared and heartbroken bc i put high expectations on myslef to be with my boyfriend for all my life. Maybe i dont want to hurt him??? im always questioning my feelings for him 24/7 for over a year. I wm tierd

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 21w

I feel like I am OCD

It is not the thoughts or urges that scare me anymore. It is the way I feel like I’ve absorbed the compulsions into my identity :( I am doing them so automatically that it feels like I am choosing them freely and they’re me. and because of that, it feels like I AM the OCD now, not just someone with OCD. I think I’m just deeply trapped in a loop. I was trying to survive unbearable fear so I started scanning. Then I started pre-scanning. Then checking if I pre-scanned. Then I check how I feel during all that. I run to beat my OCD to the “punchline” (intrusive thought, urge, sensation) because I’m so scared all the time. So scared that I don’t even feel it anymore. I feel numb and all that’s left is this jittery residue and numbness. Now it’s all tangled together in a huge knot. I feel so extremely lost. I think this may just be meta OCD, but I’ve never ever felt so gone before :( I’m really scared.

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