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I just came back from Disney World and was the happiest I’ve felt in a really long time. Then I came home and developed a new theme today from reading a book that the author decided to not properly warn his audience about. The trigger warning was way too vague and wasn’t even about the book. So now I just feel hopeless and as if the second I get happy about something it immediately gets taken away. I recently got really into StarWars and was so happy I had found something to bring me joy and take me away from everything. But lo and behold, here I am again.

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Username: LavenderGreyhoundLavenderGrey...

Date posted: 1y ago

Post vacation blues are never fun to experience. When I’m feeling that way I try to just think about everything that made me happy on vacation, look through pictures and videos. Maybe watch some Disney movies or shows to almost relive the themes and brands. Or watch YouTube videos about people who know lots of fun facts, history or information about the parks all around the world. Disney Food Blog aka DFB is a great channel I enjoy just watching about all the updates and changes occurring in the parks.

Username: Chamomile_TealeafChamomile_Te...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@LavenderGreyhound I just hope I get over this theme quickly :(

Username: Chamomile_TealeafChamomile_Te...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@LavenderGreyhound Thanks for the recommendation ♥️

Username: qrh23qrh23

Date posted: 1y ago

I understand exactly what you mean. Down to the specifics almost. A few years ago I went with my girlfriend at the time to DisneyLand for a week or so. It was so much fun! Once I returned back on the East Coast and leaving beautiful California I immediately had an intrusive thought that I would never be as happy as I was. It was awful and not even true. I obsessed over the thought that I would never be as happy as I was that week. But trust me, it passed. Just like everything does. It’s been a few years now and I realize how much BS that was and I can reflect on the time for what it was. Not the compulsion. That being said I know how you feel and it’s okay to feel that way. You will get better and this too shall pass.

Username: JFLJFL

Date posted: 1y ago

I think it is great that you can enjoy laugher and happy times. I find that there are times that I am at peace and times that I am not. I find that with ocd that when I am triggered and uncomfortable I struggle with my feelings and am not happy in the present moment. When it passes I feel normal again. I also enjoy laugher and able to watch funny videos. Star wars is awesome by the way. Did you see the new episodes with Ashoka and Anakin?

Username: Chamomile_TealeafChamomile_Te...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@JFL I haven’t started Ahsoka yet. I want to though! Im rewatching all the old movies now :)

Username: JFLJFL

Date posted: 1y ago

Chamomile. An epic star wars fan made remake of obi wan vs Vader in 10k. They remade and polished up the first fight between Darth Vader and obi wan. It is truly epic.

Username: Chamomile_TealeafChamomile_Te...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@JFL That’s amazing! I gotta check it out

Username: MALPS

Date posted: 24w ago

Depression + Self hatred + Grief

I feel like opening up about something. I would wake up everyday not knowing what to do in life. I have no motivation to talk with friends, or I would isolate myself from family, because I don’t want to be awkward around anybody and I just don’t think I’m that interesting to be around. I would be mean to myself in anyway possible. I once went to the comfort of my childhood and I would roleplay as characters of my childhood. But now I feel myself growing up and becoming an adult, and I’ve been experiencing grief of no longer being in my childhood. Having freestyle fun with my friends and family was the best I’ve ever felt. But now it’s all gone now. Now I’m stuck with feeling not open minded to anything and thinking that no one cares about me, I won’t have fun or be happy anymore, and I’m a nobody. I would even have scary thoughts about “Doing it” but I’m never planning to. I just feel like there is nothing to do anymore and I shouldn’t look back on the great childhood I had.

Username: lizaaa

Date posted: 23w ago

Lost interest

Has anyone lost interest in something they loved before intrusive thoughts? I like romance books so much, escaping my world and thinking of someone's else's,reading romance stories... After my intrusive thoughts,my books became a trigger to them and I have stopped reading two months now,I tried to pick it up again but I'm not in the mood,I really miss it

Username: Imnew@this

Date posted: 21w ago

Today was rough…

+18 TRIGGER WARNING I’ve been trying not to post as much on here, but it’s been a rough time facing these thoughts on my own. I’ve been trying to force myself to move on and not take my thoughts so seriously but it’s hard not to sit with them. Basically, to try to cope, I’ve been watching expose videos on internet drama and those who have been “cancelled”. Sometimes, though, it can just get to be too overwhelming as I start comparing myself with the people in these videos and I just want to cry because I’m just so disgusted with myself. I’m starting to question what’s real or not, if I’ve hurt people in the past or not, and separating my thoughts from my actions. I don’t trust myself anymore. I can’t find happiness in anything. I just keep pushing my friends and family away because every little thing triggers me. Sleep is the only time that I can find peace. Because then, I know that I’m not hurting anyone—including myself.

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