how can i go on like this? how is it possible to just keep going day after day feeling like this. i feel so hopeless and i just want to feel better and it feels like there’s nothing i can do and nothing that will work. i can’t keep living like this day after day it’s actual torture and i feel so so so trapped. how tf does anyone keep going like this?
Hi, are you in therapy? I definitely learned ways to cope from my NOCD therapist. It is really hard to manage without some help. If you haven't reached out to NOCD, I'd highly recommend it. They accept a lot of different insurances, and there is nothing like a therapist to guide you in your recovery. If therapy isn't an option, there are some really great options that are a lot more affordable: Kimberley Quinlan, CBT School, Nate Peterson, OCD and Anxiety Online, Jenna Overbaugh Masterclasses. Wishing you all the best.
@VGH yes i started therapy with NOCD last week. i’m really trying my best and i had a few good days but today has been so so so hard and the thought of having to spend day after day like this with only some small hope that ERP might help me literally makes me feel nauseous
@clove444 - Oh I'm so glad you are with NOCD. I had therapy other places, but, finally, through NOCD I was able to get the tools that changed my life. I know it doesn't feel great, where you are right now, and that is normal. It takes time and practice, but I promise you will feel better again. Honestly, recovery was some of the hardest work I've every done, but now that I have my life back, it was so worth it. It is super hard work, so be kind to yourself. I wish there was some way I could explain it, other than to say I had untreated OCD for 35+ years, and I consider myself recovered. I still have hard days, but you learn that those feelings don't last forever. Hang in there, it gets so much better. Be willing to have these feelings now, it means you are on the road to recovery. Take care!
@VGH thank you i appreciate the kind words 🫶
you are not alone with that! i cannot even picture my future without ocd. i miss the old days with normal everyday problems. the only way out is feeling and accepting uncertainty, which sometimes feels impossible..
@e.hkp it’s the hardest thing i’ve ever had to do
I’m here to tell you that feeling doesn’t last forever! After a completely horrible ocd crisis I went on to work my dream job, meet and marry the love of my life, move, find a new church to get involved in, etc. Try to step away from the fear that it’ll last forever because that’s ocd telling you that! You are in control of this thing— not ocd! The times I really started improving I just finally told myself “I refuse to let ocd control me for the rest of my life and make me feel this way. I’m taking my life back.” Literally every single time I got to that point, I started getting better. That’s just my personal experience! You got this!
@Anonymous20 I should add I’m not an expert so take what I say with a grain of salt, but that’s just from my personal experience! Lol!
@Anonymous20 i’m so glad you were able to manage all that! it really gives me hope
You are not alone. I joined this app today randomly and I already feel so inspired to see all the stories. I’ve been struggling with anxiety and depression my entire life more recently my adhd and ocd have gotten stronger. Sometimes I think it’ll never get better then I count all of the things I haven’t tried yet and I remember it’s endless. Endless therapies and support groups and medicines and opportunists to try new ways of healing, I’ve taken a close look at my own food and beverage choices and know that is an issue too. There’s always changes we can make to start feeling better and each day is a new opportunity to try something new even when it feels like you can’t. But I know what it feels like to be exhausted. Totally completely exhausted of healing of trying just to feel normal. But you are normal, you are safe, you are loved, you are not alone. ❤️
@Sedona2023@ you’re right there’s so many options for treatment and while it’s painful to have to wait to see improvements it’ll all be worth it in the end
☝🏻so many great words. Just hang in there. One day at a time. You'll see the path has changed. Keep up the work and just one day at a time. ❤️
You just started. Give yourself some grace and self care right now. This isn’t forever. This is hard now but it won’t always be this hard.
@artsygirl i’ll try <3
You have a community here who understands what you are going through. You are never alone 🫶🏻
@endure&thrive i appreciate you all on this app so so much
I completely relate to how you’re feeling. I just had my first session yesterday, and I feel hopeless. We haven’t been able to get to the ERP yet, so I’m holding out hope that a guided session will help me. I’ve been trying to tell myself “maybe, maybe not”, “you are not your feelings”, and whatever else, but I can’t seem to believe it. I feel like I will never feel normal and never be happy again. On top of that, I have absolutely zero appetite and nausea when the anxiety gets worse
@Anonymous damn seems like we’re in the exact same boat. i’ve also just started therapy sessions and i definitely relate a lot on the feeling too sick to eat from anxiety. we’ll get through this though! have you been to any of the support groups yet? i’ve found them to be really interesting/helpful over the past couple days
@clove444 I have not investigated those yet. Is it just like some different groups here within the app with people with the same problems?
@Anonymous yeah they have lots of groups with different topics every day and it’s a zoom call with a bunch of people discussing it and sharing techniques. it’s in the exercises section and it’s been very helpful to me so far
@clove444 Oh, I had no idea they were so involved. That sounds like something that could be helpful for me when I’m really freaking out. I will definitely check those out because since I’ve only had my first session, I’m still really lost on how to manage my thoughts or really do anything to help myself.
@clove444 It won’t let me join a group because it says I haven’t completed my first session yet, even though it was yesterday 🥲
You’re not alone at all hun! I was at that point too not too long ago and it was hell, crying every single day feeling like it would never end, now it’s manageable! Some days the thoughts don’t even bother me and some days it’s more difficult but I haven’t been that low since then. Keep fighting PLEASE this world needs you and is a better place with you in it! We are stronger than ocd and always will be!!
I have never dealt with severe depression like this, I feel really hopeless and scared, I can't imagine a future out of all my mental health issues and I can't imagine being healthy and happy. The last 3/4 years I feel like I've done nothing but avoid things that are challenging and his at home every day because of my mental health and now it's all hitting me so hard that I'm so unhappy with my life and ick how to push through feeling so bad I can't even eat. I don’t even feel like I want to hurt myself but my will to live also feels so low. I hate feeling like I’m so trapped in a mental health cycle that nothing can break it
does anyone else feel like they’re simply existing? i cant describe how im feeling. it’s not like i want to die, but i’m just at a crossroads. while i’m so blessed for this life i’ve been given, i find it tough to get ti the end of the day. i just go through periods where i don’t feel like myself. almost like another person inside of my body.
I feel like nothing is ever going to get better. I don't want to live anymore.
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