- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
Thinking of Ya'llđ
Just when I thought my day was coming to a close with a fairly easy day, I was faced with POCD just by scrolling on Instagram. A slide popped up of this artist when they were a kid and then the next slide was them 5yrs later and I thought she looked cute/attractive. I didn't know the persons age until I went to the comments (wasn't the best idea) and a lot of the comments were like "she's 14 y'all", "lotta y'all need to be locked up", which that just made the anxiety worse. I'm fighting hard to not ruminate, or try and block everything out But man it's so hardđ. It's so freaking hard. It's so hard not to listen to the OCD when it's so loud. To not let the "what ifs" and fears flood their way in. To not panic. I've been through moments like this in the past and always get through it but the OCD is trying extra hard tonight. Doing my best to first off remember we as humans have eyes and it's normal to think someone is cute or attractive. Then to remember I've gotten through this before. This time feels much harder because the "what ifs" and fears are overflowing but I know you all wouldn't give up, so neither will I. Despite how scary and hard things feel right now, I won't give in. đ