i had a few same sex dreams before i had ever suffered from this theme, and they were enjoyable in the dream, and i woke up with no anxiety. but now i feel like that is trying to say something or uncover my truth. ugh this is the worst!
I’ve had same sex dreams but I would wake up like huh it’s only a dream lol nothing else, now it makes me feel like it means something, whereas I’d have had opposite sex dreams and enjoyed every second of it even when I woke up. Do u suffer from hocd and are u diagnosed ?
@Anonymous hi! Yes HOCD and OCD diagnosis of about 3 years!
@Anonymous and same! like i’d wake up and be like weird idc but i always loved heterosexual sex dreams
@Anonymous Can u tell me ur symptoms because I’m not diagnosed so I want to know and then I can share my symptoms and u can tell me if I’m suffering from it
@Anonymous Unfortunately I am not able to diagnose you because OCD is so vast, but i can definitely tell you a bit about mine. I’ve had obsessive tendencies my entire life, and in middle school i was diagnosed with anxiety with obsessive tendencies. OCD usually shows itself after puberty and that’s what happened to me. I woke up one day my sophomore year of college and immediately knew something was wrong. I felt sick to my stomach feeling like i was sexually attracted to my best friend of two year, which had never happened to me before. Later that month i went back to my psychiatrist and i was formerly diagnosed with OCD and was old my previous diagnosis was a misdiagnosis because of a dormant OCD. i suffer from other themes of OCD as well but this is one of my longest themes. my symptoms are often trigger by lesbian couples or masculine presenting women. Social media has been super hard for me because queerness is always pushed in our faces. I get just about every symptom in the book: unwanted thoughts and urges, same sex dreams, false attraction, destroyed sex drive, etc. i had questioned my sexuality before (like just about every other women in this world) , and as a teen i thought that maybe there could be a chance i could MAYBE (under perfect circumstances) sleep with a women. however i quickly ruled that out. many old memories like that feed into my OCD. something that causes me peace is knowing that i never have and never will have the desire to actively seek out relations with another women, no matter what OCD tells me. OCD is different for everyone, and it can be really hard for people to understand if they don’t suffer from it. I know it feels like you’re just in denial, but you need to remember all of your values you had up until you started suffering with this. I have always been obsessed with men, and that’s not going to change, because my body knows that I like men. OCD messes with what matters most in your life, and my OCD decides to attack my relationship, which is my most important thing.
@Anonymous I can tell u my symptoms. I first had hocd in 2021 but felt like a stupid thought but it latched on. I left it and didn’t do much as I thought I was gay and I was so down and anxiety because up until then I was so attracted to girls, had childhood crushes, erections on girls happily etc. then early 2022 they went away I’ve been in 3 rs with girls happily and then now I’m in one for 9 months. These thoughts came back after a whole year n a bit in august 2023. I get thoughts like “kiss ur bsf u knw u want u” I’m losing attraction in girls like my sex drive slowly fluctuating. I don’t like the idea of sleeping with a man or kissing a man. I’m 17 abt to turn 18. I don’t get erections anymore and I get unpleasant thoughts abt being with guys when I don’t like it. It makes me feel like I’m in denial and have been my entire life and that all my past attractions to girls have been false and a lie. It even makes me feel like I enjoy these thoughts when I don’t at all. I’ve never been so much stressed and in anxiety as I am rn. It gives me thoughts like “ u ll never fall in love. U ll never get married, never have kids” the girl I’m with, it gives me thoughts like “u don’t even like her, ur not attracted to her, u like guys, ur ruining her life, come out u ll be so much happier.” Idk what to do anymore. That’s jus some of the symptoms. I’ve always ruminated and looked for clues and evidence that I’m not. So much so I’ve even watched gay porn to see if I enjoy it and I don’t at all
@Anonymous I’m also noticing guys more because of this and false attraction where my heart would strt racing because I don’t want to be attracted to em and don’t feel I am at all whereas if I think abt sexual encounters with girls I smile because ik I want that
Im a straight man and sometimes I make the mistake of compulsively getting on here. It’s gotten better but I slip sometimes. I feel like I’m alone in this and I even read on some OCD page that Women are more likely to suffer from this theme than Men. That just makes me feel like I’m in denial of some sort. I feel alone and feel like my intrusive thoughts are different. I know that’s what everyone who has ocd thinks, but I can’t help shake the feeling like what if I’m lying to myself or what if I have some underlying secret. I don’t want to be gay. I find I argue with myself in my head over and over and sometimes by repeating “I don’t want to be gay, I want to be straight” I’ll end up saying the opposite and that would scare me even though I know that It happened because I’m constantly fighting with OCD. Just feeling a bit down today. I had a sexual dream about an ex girlfriend and it felt great and I’m not scared by it. I find and want to be with Women romantically til forever.
I know people say ocd can manifest in your dreams. I had a semi sexual dream, in that there was a naked woman and I enjoyed the dream so surely that can't be ocd. Idk this shit is annoying.
I had a bad rumination spiral yesterday and went to bed hoping I’d start over in the morning. I was wrong. I had dreams about liking women and not being attracted to men anymore and my entire body has been in a state of anxiety since. I genuinely feel like I’m gay and just need to accept it. I have this urge to accept it. Maybe if I do I’ll get some sort of relief because this feeling is awful. I feel like my brain is telling me that I’ll get relief if I just accept it and come out. The intrusive thoughts don’t even seem to be around sexual images anymore, just to come out.
Share your thoughts so the Community can respond
