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Rocd?
Hey. So lately I have been thinking that I may have rocd but I am not quite sure if it’s that or something else. So I wanna share my story now and maybe you guys that know more about rocd could help me. So I have been dating my boyfriend about 2months now and I really much love him. If I am being honest I couldn’t ask anyone better and I don’t wanna lose him. Lately I have been having intrusive thoughts about other men/boys. Mostly sexual. They are really scary and everytime the though pops in my head I get really anxious. Sometimes they almost feel like urges even I know I don’t want to cheat on my partner and I don’t have crushes on these people. Sometimes it’s so bad that it feels like i get this unwanted sexual impulse to every men I see. I am really upset about these impulses and thoughts because they really make me anxious and make me cry because it feels like I am cheating on my partner. I am having this big urge also confessing him about these intrusive thoughts and Impulses even I don’t want to do them. I only want him but why are these thoughts and impulses bullying me so much? I am so scared that I have to leave him because of these but I love him so much that I can’t even think my life without him. Also I have been struggling almost all my life with different kinds of intrusive thoughts so that’s why I almost feel like this could be also something that is related to ocd.