I'm really struggling at the moment. I feel like I'm doing this to myself like I'm putting the thoughts there. I worry the medication has kicked in and I'm feeling like this because it's how I actually feel. A month ago I was so anxious, crying, not eating- my mind was constantly raising, thinking about nothing else. Now I feel sort of nothing but sort of everything- the thoughts are there but I'm not so worried by them. (but they're still pretty constant- the first thing on my mind when I wake up). I don't question my attraction to my partner (he's gorgeous) but my mind is constantly saying 'you don't love him' or 'this isn't right for you'. I don't know why this keeps happening and I'm worried there is nothing wrong other than the relationship being over. I really don't want it to be, but I can't think of any other way to get rid of these thoughts or feelings. I'm avoiding googling/facebooking but it's really hard. A couple of months ago I felt so normal and in love and now, these constant thoughts and feelings are making me so unhappy. It does ease a bit when I'm with him but doesn't go completely. Part of me is hoping this is OCD because I guess it means there is a chance to work through this and be with my partner, but I think I'm struggling to believe it right now. Anyone relate?

Time WILL tell. Robert bray has uploaded some excellent ROCD things to his instagram story today go check it out. @ocdrecoveryuk

Part of the recovery is having reduced anxiety but still having the thoughts. It just means your brain isn't exactly that used yet to just letting go of the thoughts, especially that you've made a habit of thinking about these thoughts and performing compulsions. But continuing what you're doing, no matter how hard the doubt tries to get to you, is what I find helpful. I can see you're doing your best, with seeking help from other people, taking meds, and trying to confide in people who could possibly offer help. You can do this :)

The same thing happen to me when I started medication. Everything got way way worse but it slowly started getting better over time. Am finally starting to feel like myself again. Just don’t give up, keep moving forward.

Thank you all so much. Your words are all so kind and supportive. They give me hope and determination. This is a really weird thing to be experiencing but it just goes to show how unique the mind is

Same here! I’ve got pretty strong meds and I can’t tell you how upset I got when I had my intrusive thoughts but not the mind numbing panic that came with them, made me feel like they’re real and it’s still the same now, I have to remember that I’m taking stuff that stops my physical reactions and that’s why I’m not getting wound up by my thoughts as much

I can relate! My medication has stopped my anxiousness but the thoughts are still there it’s very strange. I think we just need time.

I hope so! My partner is the first person I’ve felt really cares and treats me properly. He’s everything I’ve ever looked for in someone and I’d hate to chuck it away but I feel so unsure and confused. But thank you, hopefully time will tell.