Alcohol and ocd

A month before my soocd had its full blown onset I was on a night out and was really really drunk and was at a club with a bunch of my friends. I felt the urge to kiss one of my friends and felt attracted to her and was convinced I was gay in that moment. I forgot about it the next day and continued normally. I never felt attracted to her before that moment and didn’t think about it much until soocd was at its height. I’ve gotten on meds and have been better but can’t get over this moment and keep thinking ab it. The worst part is she’s bi and has often complimented me and been touchy feely and at times I’ve felt major levels of false attraction towards her and been convinced I had a crush on her. It feels like proof but I don’t want to date her or anything. But then my brain goes what if you would like being with a woman maybe that was you’re awakening and you were just ignoring it.

Sexual Orientation OCD

Anonymo12

Date posted: 1y

I’m a guy and I have the worst soocd rn😞 I jus hope it gets better

Dmsth

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous It gets better bro. Trust me, it definitely takes time and it’s not a linear process at all. Even once it gets better you will have your steps back, but you at least see the light and hope for living a “normal” life again.

Anonymo12

Date posted: 1y

@Bbogdan Why does it make me feel like I like my bsf and want to do stuff with him? Is it targetting this because when the thought first came I got scared and feared it? EVERY RIME he is nice to me I feel like he’s gay and he’s tryna move to me but I know he isn’t and I don’t like thinking like that. He’s like a lil bro to me and I love him like a brother we’ve been through hell n back. We’ve met girls together and shi. Is this hocd plahing a trick on me ?

Dmsth

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous Brother I feel you. I had the exact same experience and though it had a crush on multiple of guy friends even though all this time before ocd I’ve never even come close to think abt this. It’s def ocd and it’s because it is egodystonic, so it attacks things that you value the most and the people you love the most. To me it got to the point where I thought I liked some people in my family…

Anonymo12

Date posted: 1y

@Bbogdan Tysm, I felt like I was tripping. For me it even gets to the point where I have it on my lil brother because of this. It’s jus crazy. I hate the images it puts in my head. So much. It’s jus bad. I don’t feel anxiety but I know I’m uncomfortable with these thoughts and sometime it causes the most anxiety. I hope it goes away soon. I hate it

Dmsth

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous It goes away for sure just try your best to not avoid them because of it. Spend time with them and eventually you’ll get used to the thoughts until you won’t pay attention to them. It’s a very hard process for sure but we got this man 💪💪

Anonymo12

Date posted: 1y

@Bbogdan Uno when u say it targets the ppl u love most, could that also be my girlfriend? Where it gives me thoughts like oh u don’t like her befause ur gay thjs that. Can this be targetring her too? Also thank u man, it’s jus gotten worse because I don’t feel attraction to girls anymore BEDAUSE of this, sex drive is an all time low atm and I don’t get any erections. It’s the worst bro fr

Dmsth

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous Honestly bro I’m not an expert haha so I don’t really have an answer from that. But yeah from what I read + my opinion a mix of anxiety and your thoughts can lower your sex drive for sure. In my first week of experiencing soocd I also feared that I would not have attraction for females and you used pornography as reassurance (which is a very bad thing). But this is just my experience don’t take my full word I’m not an expert!

Anonymous

Date posted: 24w

anyone else?

So I’ve SOOCD since I was in 8 th grade and it got really bad when I had an intrusive thought as to what if I was bi. And ever since then I’ve had self destructive behavior to where I would think the thoughts on purpose or about women and checking them out and flirting with them. ( I identify as straight) and over time these thoughts and self destructive behavior hasn’t bothered me and now they feel apart of me I know apart of it is ocd but also it’s me like me willingly looking at women and me wanting to have sexual thoughts or feel aroused and in reality if I never had ocd I would never think this way I could live without women and never sleeping with them I do have a bf and I love him and am attracted to him rn thought bc of what happened last night with a women it’s hard to feel that can anyone relate?

Anonymous

Date posted: 23w

Needing SO OCD Advice

I went out last night with a couple of girlfriends. One of them is contemplating divorcing her husband bc of a drinking problem (she is straight) and made a joke about running off and joining the “lesbian island”. She then continues to say “making out with a girl is one thing” but that she could never actually BE with a woman sexually, etc. Well… this has triggered my SO OCD significantly because I’m thinking, well why does she think it’s okay to just kiss/make-out if she doesn’t identity as bisexual? I mean she is beautiful and I’ve heard all my straight friends say the same thing. So I start to worry by thinking, well I find her very attractive - does that mean I want to make out with her and see what she’s talking about? Just to note, I also identify as straight and am married. So this is just so damn frustrating and confusing. Especially bc society shows women kissing all the time on reality tv shows etc (who present themselves as straight). So now I’m having intrusive thoughts and making myself think sexual things to “check” if I’m still straight. Ughh..any advice would be greatly appreciated. And if someone could please explain why a straight woman would make such a comment - that would be very helpful.

Masc4lesb

Date posted: 16w

LESBIAN WITH SO-OCD

hi i’m a lesbian! and i have known im a lesbian for a really long time and i have a sweet girlfriend of 1 year. it all started when i saw this masc lesbian come out as straight, after that i had my guy friend over and he’s a sweet guy and he was flirting with me (he didn’t know i was gay) im not sure but i panicked and my brain froze and i was like “do i like him”, ever since my brain has been over worked 24/7 for 2 months now and it’s spiralling constantly. im trying to control it but all these thoughts are so disgusting and my brain tries to put him and i in scenarios that make me uncomfortable and i feel panic and i hate it. i have always been comfortable being a lesbian and i still am comfortable as a lesbian, but i dislike these thoughts i have about him and men and i want it to be over. i do not want to experiment with men even tho my brain is telling me i do, i find it disgusting and i dread it, i have a sweet girlfriend and i want to be with her forever, i do not imagine anything with any men and i hate these thoughts. im scared of becoming bisexual/straight one day and i hate hearing sexuality is fluid. its a whole mix of comphet and so-ocd

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