I'm having problems today with my OCD, I've been struggling recently with a relapse of an old theme, but anytime I find it out to be OCD or remind myself that it's OCD, I find myself being disappointed? Like, I'm disappointed that this horrible thought, urge, feeling, sensation, ect is apart of OCD instead of me? This freaks me out badly and I hate it so much, please tell me I'm not the only one dealing with this
Have you shared this with your new therapist yet? Something you’re currently working on? Because yes, it’s really hard to handle but you CAN do this. If you’ve been diagnosed then it’s OCD.
Yes, I am officially diagnosed with OCD, but I don't know why this old theme of mine is trying to convince me so badly. I hate it, but then it feels like I like it, and then I hate it. It feels like a constant back and forth and it's torturous, I just want my life back
@Anonymous It latches onto things you care about. The more you interact with your OCD, the worse it’ll get.
@Nica May I ask you a question? Did you ever get what if thoughts surrounding your family? If so, how'd you react?
@Anonymous Yes and at what point are you speaking? I still get them but they don’t bother me as I don’t ever interact with them. So, no obsession, no issues.
@Nica I don't believe I told you how this theme of mine began, but around a week ago or a week and a half by now. I began to notice that being around one of my closest brothers was causing me to grow anxious, I was getting concerned about that, and eventually while I was drawing. A sudden spike of anxiety hit me and I got a thought of, "What if you liked your brother?" I quickly got off my drawing tablet due to the anxiety and I've been in bed ever since
@Anonymous I’ve had the same thought and ERP and mindfulness and all that still applies even though the topic is very taboo. But that’s why it’s an issue for you.
@Nica But it feels so real and like I actually want it even though I don't, I feel so ashamed and disgusted with myself, because I've managed to get through this theme in the past yet somehow it feels more real than ever now. I just wished I never had these thoughts and what makes it worse is that it makes me feel like I have a genuine crush and I just want it to stop
@Anonymous It feels real because it’s coming from your brain and that’s the powerhouse of all human beings. But I know you know this is OCD. Please do talk to your therapist when you next see them about this and definitely try to get out of bed and eat, shower, do a hobby or get into a new hobby—staying sedative in your bed isn’t good for your physically or mentally.
@Nica Have you ever experienced something like this before? I hate it so much, I even get these intrusive urges to want to act out my thoughts, and I get too scared to leave my bed out of fear I'd do something. I just want it to stop, but when it stops, I worry without the anxiety and then the whole process starts again. I'll definitely inform my therapist of this, but I hate how real OCD can get
@Anonymous Yes. As I’ve said in the past, I’ve had all themes imaginable but you still treat it with ERP and mindfulness. Also you have to be physically active too 💚
@Nica What was your experience like?
@Anonymous You’re seeking reassurance and I know you want it but I’m not going to give it to you. I know it’s hard but you have to let those thoughts, images, and feelings be present. Fighting, doing compulsions, or judging then will only make things worse.
@Nica Okay, I'm sorry, this is really hard, but I know I've gotten through this rough patch before and I'll get through it again
@Anonymous No worries. Try out Insight Timer for guided meditations. It helped me a lot when I was struggling.
Anyone else feel that when they aren’t experiencing a theme that their ocd is almost non existent. It almost makes me feel like I’ve been faking it, and also makes me feel ridiculous for obsessing over things. I feel sorry for myself :/ I know that my themes are valid and felt very real in the moment, but after I “get over” them I just can’t believe that I was obsessing over something that either wasn’t true or didn’t apply to me. I would also like to know how to prevent themes from reoccurring. Health, religion and existential OCD themes tend to take turns throughout my life, I just didn’t know that was it ocd. Trying to break the cycle.
I think when people are saying OCD is egodystonic is really triggering me and I was just wondering if this has happened to anyone else? I’m going through a really bad relapse and right now I’m trying to figure out if my thoughts are truly egodystonic, like I how do I know I won’t act on them, how can I trust my emotions and everything. I feel really confused and I feel like I don’t know who I am anymore or how I carry on with life because it’s so long and I’m so unsure of everything that’s going on in my head. Like how do I know that this is OCD and true desires/urges. I’m so confused.
Im a straight man and sometimes I make the mistake of compulsively getting on here. It’s gotten better but I slip sometimes. I feel like I’m alone in this and I even read on some OCD page that Women are more likely to suffer from this theme than Men. That just makes me feel like I’m in denial of some sort. I feel alone and feel like my intrusive thoughts are different. I know that’s what everyone who has ocd thinks, but I can’t help shake the feeling like what if I’m lying to myself or what if I have some underlying secret. I don’t want to be gay. I find I argue with myself in my head over and over and sometimes by repeating “I don’t want to be gay, I want to be straight” I’ll end up saying the opposite and that would scare me even though I know that It happened because I’m constantly fighting with OCD. Just feeling a bit down today. I had a sexual dream about an ex girlfriend and it felt great and I’m not scared by it. I find and want to be with Women romantically til forever.
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