So my bf wrote me a sweet paragraph and I’ve been having ocd bad for a few days (I’m on my period) and I feel guilty while reading it and get doubts if I love him and usually my brain will be like “ya I want to love him” but this time it’s not and I’m worried me wanting to love him is just Bc I feel bad to leave Bc he’s a good guy but I don’t feel that. And once in awhile my brain will be like “ya you love him” but it feels all real. Someone help

It just feels so real and I’m scared Bc part of me cares the other doesn’t and I’m just confused

Do you find it’s often worse on your period?

Tes

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I have these doubts too. You’re definitely not alone, and it’s great to know it’s pretty common it’s worse around hormonal cycles. You can definitely get through this.

Yep I completely understand, it’s exactly how I feel.

How do I deal with this ugh I feel like idek how I feel usually my brain will be like “but I wanna be with him” when I have a doubt but I’m not getting that today

I have this to. Feels Like my minds exhausted and has given up even trying to fight. But the fact there is part of you that is fighting back, even quietly, is enough I find. I wouldn’t fight for someone I didn’t care, it would be so much easier to walk away. But tbh I can’t answer that question very well as I struggle too.

I’m just worried the reason a part of me is still fighting is just Bc I’m attached

But also I felt guilty when he wrote me the paragraph but if I really didn’t like him I would have felt guilty when his mom txted me and I didn’t so

But why would you be attached to something you didn’t care about? But also remember uncertainty and accepting it is the key to OCD. Also, your mind is soo overwhelmed with anxiety and trying to find answers to this that feeling guilt wouldn’t be as easy as it would with your normal rational mind in use (does that make sense?) does your partner know what you think you’re suffering with? I’d explain to him (if you want) there’s a great YouTube Chanel called Awaken into love all about this- try not to let the vids become a compulsion though (I have). I’d go see a doctor if you haven’t- medication may help and a therapist/counsellor. Do some research but don’t let googling become a habit. Also don’t end a relationship or do something irrational when you aren’t thinking straight either- it’s important to think clearly and rationally when making those kind of decisions.

Ya my bf knows about my ocd and he has ocd too but a different kind that doesn’t affect his relationships and he’s super duper supportive and I’m thankful for him. My brain often views him as a bad person too when he’s not and idk I’m just going thru a hard time. When I tell you this what are ur thoughts? Like “oh she has nothing to worry about it’s ocd”. It helps to know from an outside source if I’m being irrational

I can’t answer that, I’m sorry. 1- because I’m not a professional. 2. Because I can’t answer it for myself so couldn’t answer it for anyone else. 3. Because it could potentially be a compulsion (reassurance seeking.) but you do sound like you’re struggling and reaching it out for help is a great start- id definitely try a professional though as they’ll be able to answer that question for you. Regardless of if this is OCD or not, give yourself a break and some self love. Enjoy the time you do have with your boyfriend and sit with the thoughts. Take each day as it comes and ride the waves- it’ll get better.