Need support

I’ve had hit and run ocd for the last 18 years and I have to drive everyday. It has gotten a little bit better through ERP but it’s still a daily struggle. In the last several years I’ve used a video as reassurance when driving but that just makes it worse. It is mostly intrusive images of hitting pedestrians. For many years I have had my wife check areas I have driven to make sure no one was hit by a car. Switched therapists recently so I’m hoping things get better because it’s so exhausting.

Hi, I’m currently struggling with hit and run ocd. I have been for the past 2 years and it’s hard. I’ve dealt with different ocd topics but this one is so hard. Yesterday I was driving and saw a 3 person group walking across a cross walk on the opposite side of where I was driving. Well I had to turn left and cross that road and as I cross the cross walk that go across the road I’m turning on, I think in my head “omg could those people have been in the cross walk” even tho I checked before hand to make sure they weren’t there, I didn’t see them, didn’t see anything in my mirrors and I kept going, when I gave my car a little gas to accelerate my mind thinks the jolt was them, so I did a big loop around and didn’t find anything, even saw a driver go across that crosswalk. The fact I couldn’t see nobody make my ocd worse! Checking just made me more doubtful. I just know that ocd itch to “make sure” I just wanna “check one more time” it’s all a trap. Sometimes I have 3 triggers a day. Won’t even need to feel anything! My mind will go, you could’ve ran someone over and not noticed. Even if there was absolutely no reason for me to think I hit someone, my brain will still send a what if signal. I can never be sure enough. But the days I say I don’t care I know it’s bs, it goes away by the time I go home. It’s very hard and very tricky.