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I can relate to this so much I experienced other sub types of last 15 years I went through divorce with my ex after 5years of marriage she was very abusive Always cheating etc etc i ended up with full custody of my kids and which as great ... I met my current partner 5 years ago had a few doubts over the purse of the relationship but nothing bad I just put It down to natural anxiety of past events ... January this year I felt irritated a lot then woke up in middle of the night and thought I don’t want to be with her the panic attacks we’re horrendous I actually left her (for 1day ?) I felt even worse I knew I’d made a mistake and I did want to be with her and I did love her I went back home and explained everything how I’d been feeling etc she was brilliant and understood ... al the bad feelings passed 6 months later 1st of June after a couple of months of financial stress I lost my job etc I awoke with the panic and thoughts again and from then till now if suffered the you don’t want to be with her thoughts u don’t love her etc this time I didn’t leave some days it eases some days are worse but she is very understanding I often question is it ocd ( I was diagnosed in January ) or not but in moments of clarity I know in my heart of hearts I want to be with her Iv just signed up to awaken into love rocd course with kiyomi fae it’s great it might be worth a try for u he also has. YouTube channel awaken into love .... my advice is hold be don’t give up it sounds like u really value ur relationship with ur partner and we all know ocd attacks what we value the most ... keep fighting u can do this
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I totally understand what ur saying the more u seem to want to “feel” something the less it’s there my clarity seems to come when Iv been busy and not had time to think negative and then my normal self seems to come thru then I’ll obsess why I felt “normal” with no anxiety then boom it’s back such a vicious cycle .. thank u so much for sharing ur story it hit home with me
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Exactly the same here! It’s a weird thing right? It’s become odd to feel normal. And thanks for replying! It’s helped
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Keep fighting for what u truly want
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Thank you! You too!!
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Thank you thank you! I’m glad this is sounding relatively normal. I was hoping (without giving reassurance) to at least show people they’re not alone. I’ve been watching awake into love- they’re great. Although I feel I’m not getting as much out of it as I was. I do a lot, I want that caring voice that loves him and wants this to just be louder again! It’s being muffled by the negative feelings and thoughts. It sounds like you’re doing really well and your partner sounds great too!
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