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I do the same exact thing. It does literally feel constant like it’s happening every single minute of the day. I’ve gotten myself so afraid of being calm because I’m worried that if I get “better” then I’ll just realize I’ve been lying to myself and everyone and that I am just a lesbian. My anxiety is so bad I can barely even eat.
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Mamabird, just so you know, relapse is possible. Ocd is a chronic disease (as much as I hate to admit it) and it only 10% of people, after treatment, are “healed” in the sense that they never have the thoughts again, never have the anxiety again, etc. Treatment is very effective for most people who have OCD, but it doesn’t mean that they never struggle again. Don’t beat yourself up because you don’t feel like you’re doing ERP well enough. There is hope, but it doesn’t come without the fight. Be kind to yourself.
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I know I’ll feel better long term but it’s the short term that freaking sucks. It doesn’t feel good. It just doesn’t.
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I'm going through the same , I'm seeking therapy still I don't know how to accept the uncertainty
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I’ve done therapy before and it did help somehow but I feel like lost all over again, and I’ve started making appointments again.
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Mamabird, how good guy are at accepting uncertainty?? Because therapy provides long term effect ,tools in your arsenal to fight OCD but if you are seeking therapy again it means you are not doing the ERP as told by your therapist
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Do this...accept your thoughts as irrational regardless of whether your fear is real or unreal ,for your well being just disregard all thoughts aggressively without knowing the potential risk of your fears
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You are at accepting*
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@mamabird17 oh my god I always think the EXACT same thing. I’m terrified of getting better too incase I just accept being a lesbian and then basically confirming it was never OCD.
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I live in the UK and I don’t see much here in terms of OCD and ERP, so I’m thinking about going to the US when I’m a bit older because I hear a lot of it going on there. Sounds stupid to make myself wait because I’m 20 and been doing this for 5 years so I’m basically making myself go through more of the same but I’m terrified of UK therapists not understanding
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@b13, therapy is not a magic band that , ultimately you have to take that risk insupervision of your therapist , there is no way to overcome this disorder , I'm insisting because I'm brutally suffering from this disorder and having suicidal tendencies, so I have that soft corner for the OCD sufferers because I know the turmoil we go through so dear seek therapy ASAP and take medication if it's severe and start saying to your OCD thoughts may be /may be not
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Today I had a session with my therapist and I have accepted uncertainty because there is no way , I accepted that I could go wrong,my fear might be real but right now I'll ripped apart my OCD
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I know I’m not doing ERP well right now, which is why I made appointments to see my therapist again. I’m also having a hard time facing that I will feel like this the rest of my life. I know I will always be battling this and it makes me sooo miserable. I can’t even foresee myself ever switching to another theme because this one is soooo well rooted now.
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Sorry to hear that but there is a hope, tell me this living with OCD hell is better than the fear or disastrous event that might be or might not occur?
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My fear is that I am living a lie or in denial and that I’m actually a lesbian. I worry that I’m just unable to accept this truth and when I do I will have to leave the husband I love. Obviously ruining our marriage and having my kids grow up in a broken home. That seems like wayyyy worse than just living with the fear.
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I feel the same that i was in denial for 20 year of my life
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It happens all the time 24/7, but eventually I have learned to just let go. I don’t have anxiety. However I have yet to get the answers I thought would come to naturally. So after some practice the anxiety will lessen, you’ll be able to focus on other tasks around you, and maybe for you, some answers will come naturally, too
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I struggle so bad with intrusive thoughts. They can be so bad that I'll cry because I KNOW that's not how I feel or want to do. (Too embarrassed to say what they're about) I'll constantly try to figure out why I have them, and constantly figure out what they mean, causing me to constantly circle around and around. I had to get on anxeity meds, which helped a little but the thoughts still happen. How do you help yourself with this? How do you know that you're just not some physcopath? 😅
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