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I’m 32. At the time I was 15 in my English class and we were talking about how Anne Frank was allegedly a lesbian. A straight up BOMB went off in my head and I had my first panic attack and went completely in my head. “WHAT IF IM A LESBIAN?!” I was sweating and wanted to cry. To this day I have no idea why it happened. Was certainly not the first time talking about anything LGBTQIA+. But OCD wasn’t really a spoken about topic at that time so for a solid 7 years I was in my head with revolving themes. I’ll never forget that moment bc I’ve not been the same since.
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@Readytorecover A bomb going off in our head! That’s exactly the feeling!
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Sometimes I feel like I’m cured and here and there I’ll doubt myself but July was when I went full force into this subset
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@j.aurelia You cannot cure any mental illness but you can absolutely recover and live a happy life. Ups and downs are also normal.
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@j.aurelia That’s good news! Basically you’re subclinical—and that could very well change as stressful events happen in life, but you know how to get better so it’s just about riding the wave.
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@Nica Thank you! If I can get there, anyone can for sure
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I remember the famous “before and after” moment, it undoubtedly marked my life to this day.
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@Carlos A Yeah same. Just know you are not that day by any means
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@j.aurelia You neither, sweetheart
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My one professor is also a counselor, and he tells our class that we are just observers of our thoughts and they are not parts of us. It’s beautiful
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Yeh, I used to say I wish I could go back to that moment to change it, but now it’s gone so bad I say to myself I wish I could go back just even 1 week in time to make it at least a little better😅
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@Anonymous That’s a perfect representation of the human condition! I wish you well
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I remember the first panic attacks I had in college my freshman year bc of my intrusive thoughts. I didn’t understand why they were happening and I wanted to know why so bad
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@EFF_OCD Nothing catalyzed them?
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I remember the exact moment as well. Looking back I think when I was younger I experienced small amounts of OCD but I remember “the day my brain broke”. I think I even remember what I was wearing LOL
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@ryry The day my brain broke is equally how I felt too. Are we soul sisters? Lol
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@Readytorecover Hahaha! I didn’t come up with it! I think it’s a book title (about ocd) that I saw one time and I was like “THATS IT!!!!”
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Thank you all for sharing and being vulnerable. It’s so wild how sometimes it’s like a damn breaks out of nowhere and you get flooded. I despise how ocd will try to make you recount earlier times and taint them, so you think your theme was true and always has been
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@j.aurelia This
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Not really because I was 4 years old doing compulsions and my mom caught me.
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She’s a therapist and it was more stereotypical physical checkings, so kinda obvious to her personally 😆
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@Nica That’s really cool in its own way
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I remember the exact moment.
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@Anarch_Stirner How far have you come from then
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I would say I am doing better. But there are a lot of folks doing much better than I am
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@Anarch_Stirner You’ll get to where you want to be
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Hi!! My names Calista R. Woodbury-Rabon. I recently got married in March of this year. And have been struggling with my severe anxiety disorder since I left my toxic 3 year relationship about a year ago. Over the past several months, I have noticed that I go through phases where: I have a full body “anxiety attack”. Or at least that’s what I call it. For example : when we went to cookout and they told us they were out of the chili for walking tacos. I had a full blown anxiety attack or at least what I thought was an anxiety attack and starting hyperventilating and crying. Therefore, the only solution (in my mind) was that I wouldn’t be able to calm down until I had the walking tacos. Another example : My husband bought me a pajama set that was only recently put out because it was a patriotic item which means that after the summer it’d be gone… I ended up picking up the wrong size. So that night when I went to put on the Pajamas and realized they were too small I started hyperventilating and crying. All because these $17 pajamas did not fit me and it was no fault of my own. Whenever this happens, I usually end up spiraling and crying and saying a lot at once very quickly. And I usually look crazy and don’t make a lot of sense. Usually after the spiraling is over with I’m very exhausted and usually will cry myself to sleep. My husband more often than not will say stuff like “it’s not that big of a deal you can get something else.” << when it has to do with food etc. OR “we can just buy another set of pjamas the next time I get paid.” << in relation to the pajamas in this instance. But honestly no matter what him or anyone else tells me in that moment. All that matters is that I can feel the anxiety in my bones. And I can’t breathe and in that moment my world as I know it has ended. I’ve tried taking online free “quizzes” to find out if I acctually have OCD and they’ve been negative. I also did some research and learned that you can have all the symptoms for a OCD “flare-up” but present no active case of OCD or symptoms. So I guess what I’m trying to find out is if I don’t have “OCD” than Is this out of body experience caused from my “severe anxiety disorder” diagnosis ? Or just anxiety in general?? Thank you for taking the time to read this even if you also aren’t sure!! Means a lot to me..❤️🩹
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I got TMS almost a year ago and it helped so much. Now I am having one of the worst flare ups I have had in over a year. My themes keep changing, I am so exhausted. Its affecting my relationship because I am constantly on edge and my boyfriend is struggling to manage the whip lash. He thinks its his fault. I feel like I cannot trust my own thoughts but they feel so real, I am so lost. Has anyone had their OCD score drop and then rapidly peak? No one understands my heightened anxiety, and I’m just so tired 😔
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I’m a teacher, and for the last two school breaks, my harm OCD spikes regarding my girlfriend. The first one was winter break (It came back after three years), and when I was recovering, it came back in the beginning of June. Just out of nowhere. Even though I know it’s OCD, it still scares the hell out of me and I spiral for weeks and weeks. Does anyone else have spikes and relapses when there are breaks in your routine?
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