j.aurelia
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- 2y
ReadytorecoverReadytorecover
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- OCD Conqueror
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I’m 32. At the time I was 15 in my English class and we were talking about how Anne Frank was allegedly a lesbian. A straight up BOMB went off in my head and I had my first panic attack and went completely in my head. “WHAT IF IM A LESBIAN?!” I was sweating and wanted to cry. To this day I have no idea why it happened. Was certainly not the first time talking about anything LGBTQIA+. But OCD wasn’t really a spoken about topic at that time so for a solid 7 years I was in my head with revolving themes. I’ll never forget that moment bc I’ve not been the same since.
ryryryry
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- 2y
@Readytorecover A bomb going off in our head! That’s exactly the feeling!
j.aureliaj.aurelia
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- 2y
Sometimes I feel like I’m cured and here and there I’ll doubt myself but July was when I went full force into this subset
NicaNica
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@j.aurelia You cannot cure any mental illness but you can absolutely recover and live a happy life. Ups and downs are also normal.
NicaNica
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- 2y
@j.aurelia That’s good news! Basically you’re subclinical—and that could very well change as stressful events happen in life, but you know how to get better so it’s just about riding the wave.
j.aureliaj.aurelia
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- 2y
@Nica Thank you! If I can get there, anyone can for sure
Carlos ACarlos A
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- 2y
I remember the famous “before and after” moment, it undoubtedly marked my life to this day.
j.aureliaj.aurelia
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- 2y
@Carlos A Yeah same. Just know you are not that day by any means
Carlos ACarlos A
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@j.aurelia You neither, sweetheart
j.aureliaj.aurelia
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- 2y
My one professor is also a counselor, and he tells our class that we are just observers of our thoughts and they are not parts of us. It’s beautiful
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 2y
Yeh, I used to say I wish I could go back to that moment to change it, but now it’s gone so bad I say to myself I wish I could go back just even 1 week in time to make it at least a little better😅
j.aureliaj.aurelia
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- 2y
@Anonymous That’s a perfect representation of the human condition! I wish you well
EFF_OCDEFF_OCD
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- 2y
I remember the first panic attacks I had in college my freshman year bc of my intrusive thoughts. I didn’t understand why they were happening and I wanted to know why so bad
j.aureliaj.aurelia
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@EFF_OCD Nothing catalyzed them?
ryryryry
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I remember the exact moment as well. Looking back I think when I was younger I experienced small amounts of OCD but I remember “the day my brain broke”. I think I even remember what I was wearing LOL
ReadytorecoverReadytorecover
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
@ryry The day my brain broke is equally how I felt too. Are we soul sisters? Lol
ryryryry
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- 2y
@Readytorecover Hahaha! I didn’t come up with it! I think it’s a book title (about ocd) that I saw one time and I was like “THATS IT!!!!”
j.aureliaj.aurelia
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- 2y
Thank you all for sharing and being vulnerable. It’s so wild how sometimes it’s like a damn breaks out of nowhere and you get flooded. I despise how ocd will try to make you recount earlier times and taint them, so you think your theme was true and always has been
ReadytorecoverReadytorecover
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 2y
@j.aurelia This
NicaNica
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Not really because I was 4 years old doing compulsions and my mom caught me.
NicaNica
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She’s a therapist and it was more stereotypical physical checkings, so kinda obvious to her personally 😆
j.aureliaj.aurelia
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@Nica That’s really cool in its own way
Anarch_StirnerAnarch_Stirner
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I remember the exact moment.
j.aureliaj.aurelia
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@Anarch_Stirner How far have you come from then
Anarch_StirnerAnarch_Stirner
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I would say I am doing better. But there are a lot of folks doing much better than I am
j.aureliaj.aurelia
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@Anarch_Stirner You’ll get to where you want to be
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