I hate thinking my past will always come to haunt me or that I need to confess things to my mom to get relief rather than just using my own judgment. The what if’s really kill me. 3 years ago I used to fool around with a guy from my old job and we would do it in the car sometimes behind a shopping center. My parents now have my car because they had to sell one (I take the train anyway to work now). Rational thinking me says it was 3 years ago and if you were to get caught you would’ve already. OCD me is saying no there are cameras everywhere and I will be called by the cops. Or some disease or germs is left over in my car and now my parents will catch it because they are using my car. Not something i want to confess so I’m keeping it inside but it’s making my ocd and anxiety run wild. At the time I was fine but years later I think of things! The guy I fooled around with jokingly made a murder suicide threat when I was annoying him once and I went to HR for it because my ocd got so bad from that comment. I also obsess he taped us or will expose me to my parents for revenge even though I haven’t heard from him in 3 years. Haven’t even thought about this for so long idk why I randomly remember things and get frightened. It’s like I have some intense guilt amplified from my stress (moving back home, breakup, starting new job)