My ERP work and meds are finally working well. My Harm OCD is way down and I'm starting to feel like my old self. Unfortunately I had a thought and anxiety spike around some coworkers and now it's HOCD, I keep worrying about my body language and making sure I don't come off as gay, also constant thoughts of them being flirting or hitting on me I hate this.
Remember that ocd at its core is still the same, so respond to any new thoughts the same way you would respond to your harm ocd. I know it’s hard but you can see the improvement you’ve made, keep it up!
Omg, I’m so sorry, I know this may come off as really selfish, but I wished mine would change to HarmOCD. I’ve had HarmOCD and it was really bad but hocd had been the worst for me
How long did you do erp for HarmOCD? I agree w above, it’s the same treatment
This is my second episode with it, took about a week along with starting Lexapro to come out of the haze.
Do you find it easy to open up to your therapist about your harm thoughts?
I didn't really go to a therapist apart from a support group, I used a ERP workbook I found online. I'm sure if they are a OCD knowledgeable therapist you should feel safe telling them how your mind is lying to you.
@Torquemada You're on this app though... Did you have a therapist?
This started happening to me in 2022 and it's gotten okay but it's still bothering me a lot. I to do erp when I get the thoughts but it really just feels like confirmation. Here's the thing the idea ALONE that I could be anything other than straight even if it is as tiny as .001% makes me feel awful because I know that the idea of being with another woman is just not for me. But the thoughts and goinals keep coming and I'm at a loss. It's just know that being with my man feels right but these thoughts are starting to affect that. I just feel so lost.
It's funny but my soocd subtype seems to pop up during fall and winter, and leaves during spring and summer. Currently it has me overanalyzing my friendship with my friend who happens to be gay. It's really frustrating. What makes this even worse is this friend and I are fairly close, (I see them as a parental type figure) and it makes it really awkward especially when they use words like honey or sweetie. They're biologically female, but identify as he/they, which again doesn't help my OCD. They're like 6 years older than me. Idk I'm just freaking out a bit lol.
You know when you have weird thoughts about a coworker and because you have OCD these thoughts really stick and you panic and feel sick? Yeah that’s me and I’ve struggled with having intrusive thoughts about my coworker and now he just got in a relationship with my coworker and my intrusive thoughts are WORSE I thought they would be better? And initially they were because I was relieved that he couldn’t be weird with me now because he has a girlfriend. But this is the thought that i cannot get over- my OCD is like you’re jealous that he doesn’t like you and he’s not with you instead and i envy this girl he is with. Why the fuck am I having these thoughts while I’m in a healthy relationship and love my boyfriend to DEATH- like I know he is my forever. I couldn’t look at him today because I’ve been obsessing over this thought I’ve had in work and now I have to find a new job I hope no one will judge me for these thoughts or maybe someone has had this weird thought before? :(
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