I feel like I’ve failed.

I asked for reassurance from the stranger I was having what if thoughts about. I feel crazy. I feel like I’ve failed, I couldn’t handle the unknown. I’ve been fighting so hard for no reason it feels like. I feel kinda gross too. Like asking for reassurance and going through all of this alone.. without my boyfriend knowing anything. He has no idea I struggle so badly. He has no idea of the panic attacks and how hard I’ve been fighting. I wish I could just be freaking normal. I’m 25 and have little to no mental stability when it comes to ocd. I feel like I could break in half at the drop of a needle.

False Memory OCD

Username: Nush.124Nush.124

Date posted: 1y ago

Your not alone! I haven’t told my boyfriend about my ocd as well, I totally understand how your feeling. Remind yourself that your stronger then what you think you are and your not alone at all ❤️ there’s a community here that feel as you do and understands you, even if your not reaching out to your boyfriend your reaching out here, in a safe place and that in itself takes more courage then what u think it does! Be proud yourself, your strong 💪🏻

Username: Justine2734Justine2734

Date posted: 1y ago

So important to talk to a professional my friend. And they should help you open up about it ocd. You can’t live in isolation with this, because THAT is what makes you think you are crazy. No one is bringing you back normalcy

Username: Curtis Devon Curtis Devon

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

You're not crazy

Username: ashocdashocd

Date posted: 1y ago

You’re not alone I’m 26 and this started coming up when I was 23. When it came up at 23 I didn’t want to tell anybody because I was so scared of what they would think and I actually didn’t even understand what was going on and why all of a sudden things flipped. I lived in that state of mind for maybe a year and a half and then it seemed to almost kind of go away and then it came back again when I was 25. This time I decided I needed help. I talk to my boyfriend. Started to see a therapist, started talking to my doctor about what was going on. I started journaling that’s been a big thing for me. Just getting the thoughts out of my head on the paper is almost relief. Let the people closest to you help you by letting them know that you are struggling and that you need support. Days go from decent one day to a train wreck the next. I’ve also been utilizing 988 as that has helped developing a safety plan and they can do grounding exercises to help with the initial panic of overwhelming thoughts. Wish you the best of luck. You’ve survived 100% of your bad days, remember that.

Username: Catperson10

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

Reassurance seeking feels intense

Hi ask in in the middle of an argument with a friend. And I'm having a major urge to seek reassurance. Like chest pain amount is anxiety level. I have failed my ERP today by trying to get reassurance but both people are aware of my OCD and rightly answered may or may not. Anyone have tips on how to get through this? I thought I was on the other side of this but OCD is raring up.

Username: Lizek

Date posted: 1y ago

I don't know what to do

I feel like If I don't tell someone something I'll go crazy and I can't talk to to my family or friends I am to scared that they will hate me if that did happen I couldn't take it I'm so scared I just downloaded this app and I don't know much about ocd except what iv watched on YouTube and read online why am I don't even know why I'm trying this I just want to be ok the last few days have been the worst I do my best to act normal around my family but I can tell I'm not do that good of a job I can't stop crying when I'm alone i soon know what to do with my self I'm so fucked sorry for this rable Idk if this even helped I know I'm not supposed to ask for reassurance sorry

Username: Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Unsure what to do.

Here we go again. That’s all it feels like. Just one big circle. I was doing much better but it seems like it’s this endless rollercoaster. There was a time in my life where OCD didn’t exist. I used to be care free and (still have plenty of issues trying to resolve with therapy don’t get me wrong) but it wasn’t like this. I have met this person who is truly the love of my life. The support, love, and giving kind of relationship we have is unlike anything I’ve ever known or even thought truly existed… and I’m ruining it. Not only does this man congratulate my small wins with me with my contamination OCD but also tries to understand as much as he can just so he can support and be there for me better. Somehow, someway I have now developed another form or encountered a for of ROCD. I’m acknowledging another form of something I do desperately need to conquer snd remove from my life. I feel so defeated and depressed to the point I really don’t see the point anymore. I have a great man who deserves none of this headache to begin with.. this is my battle not his and yet he has taken on thsi and willingly no less. I have always been confident. There should be no reason for insecurities in myself or us. But they are here, right now. Could it be a normal fix? Can it be something worked on.. if so, what does the ERP look like? I want to get better for me… but for him and my family as well. I’m tired of being this way, this person who has so many issues that never end, never stop. I try really hard to control my emotions and thoughts and it’s exhausting. I’m just tired and done with my own self and I either need advice and hope or I just don’t know what I’ll be able to handle anymore

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