Scared

I don’t know why I felt that way or got nervous I wish I hadn’t the hell :/ I wanna cry and confess to my boyfriend

I am sure you love your boyfriend very much. We are human so feeling an attraction is quite normal in my belief. I would not judge yourself for that.

just because u felt nervous doesn’t mean you don’t love your bf!! you could just have been nervous for another reason! i wouldn’t chalk it up to u liking him until u are sure!

and then if u are sure, u can have a talk with ur partner abt it! that doesn’t mean it will be the end or ur relationship- but rn it could just be overthinking!

It is perfectly okay to believe in yourself and believe you love your boyfriend. The fear does not have to control you. There are many reasons eye contact like that could have made you feel uncomfortable... Like, for example, eye contact can communicate a lot between people and especially with someone you don't know, this can feel overwhelming or alarming. Confessing to your boyfriend will most likely strengthen your obsessive worry, rather than help. I think what helps me at times is to breathe and think about why I want to share. Am I sharing because I have to or else I'm a bad person? That's pretty OCD, and I try to avoid this when I can.

those feelings of guilt can be so intense when ocd latches onto situations like this, turning normal interactions into a minefield of 'what-ifs' and doubts. it's completely natural to feel a bit nervous when someone looks you in the eyes, especially if it's persistent—it doesn't necessarily mean anything about your feelings towards them. ocd can make you read into and question every little response you have, but those reactions don't define your intentions or your feelings for your boyfriend. telling your bf about this could be tricky; it might not provide the relief you're seeking, and could potentially cause unnecessary hurt, as you've realized. it's a tough spot, but remember, having a moment of nervousness doesn't equate to having a crush. i've felt that same need for reassurance with my pure o. the urge to confess or seek that assurance is ocd's way of trying to resolve the uncertainty it creates. instead, maybe consider checking out the ai ocd therapy tool that i mentioned before. it can help guide you through these feelings and thoughts using erp techniques, without relying on those compulsions for reassurance. it's free, which makes it pretty accessible when you're dealing with these spikes of guilt and worry. you're navigating a complex journey with ocd, but you're not doing it alone.