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Hey! I definitely am unable to finish sentences and process my thoughts because I am just not mentally present. I’m usually obsessing about my fears rather then actively talking to the person in front of me. I also stop myself from smiling or even feeling happy because I’m afraid if I’m happy I’ve accepted the thoughts and I’m afraid if I’m happy that I’m really a bad person and should not deserve happiness. It’s just the ocd talking!!!
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I totally have this thing mid talking to someone, I suddenly become SO aware of myself. I’m like ‘holy shit I’m talking right now and I’m thinking about talking, this is an ocd thought, I’m having an ocd moment and the other people round me don’t even know I’m thinking this’ It’s like what the fuck. I also have the ‘don’t have too much fun now you still have ocd’ and then it feels like okay I’m not truly having fun if I have to force do/ think that? ? Ugh... but you are totally not alone? And you won’t lose control that’s another anxious thoight, I promise. I don’t mean that in a patronising way btw:) Thanks so much for posting
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Same I am beyond thrilled but at the same time saddened I'm not the only one here on Earth that has this. It feels so isolating at times. If I had a magic super power it would be to end OCD in every form for everyone bc it's literal hell.
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Yes I get this! I’ll be talking and having a good time then all of sudden my brain like goes blank and I forget what I was saying and it does make it hard to make sentences and keep a convo going. I think of it as sort of a brain fog. I don’t know how to stop it but I usually just try to not let it bother me. Stay strong, you’ll find yourself again ❤️
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- 6y ago
Get this all the time almost everyday.
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- 6y ago
This app makes me feel less alone. I literally feel like a failure of a human at times when this happens
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Me too 10000%. I have said so many times I would give my legs or arms To take my mental pain away
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Is brain fog? Permanent ? How do I get rid of it? I thought I was scrizophenic or something...
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I don’t know if it’s actually brain fog but it seems similar-I’m still new to all of this. I don’t think it’s permanent though. It’s like our brains coping mechanism since we’re always so anxious, the brain gets tired and needs a break or something like that. I don’t believe you’re schizophrenic, I think it goes away during recovery and therapy. It’s just another symptom of the OCD so it should fade along with the other symptoms. Good luck!
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I am totally the same @Na!!!
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And my obsessions
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- 21w ago
I haven't been officially diagnosed with OCD but when I learned more about it, I never related to anything more. A little back story: when I was younger, there were a couple of youth suicides in my area and the schools felt the need to have someone come in and talk about suicide. Well the person they had come in did a horrible job teaching it and basically made it seem like the smallest negative emotion or feeling or change in behavior made you suicidal. This ended up scaring me so much that I got horrid anxiety. Fast forward to now, Everytime I feel anxiety and panic, I fear I'm going to kill myself. Everytime I feel down and depressed, I fear I'll end it all. I'm scared to be around anything sharp because the "What if" I hurt myself comes into my mind. There are always intrusive thoughts at almost every point of the day. And it's not only for me. Everytime I hear someone being negative, I fear they will be suicidal. I know in my heart that none of this is true but it's terrifying me that it's stuck around so much that it makes me scared that maybe it is true. I've had a lot of death in my family in the past year and a half and a lot of other family drama that I'd never had before that is now also bringing up existential intrusive thoughts. And I'd never questioned anything about life before but now I get the "why is life like this?" and "does anything we do matter?" and I hate it. I don't want to think like that. I just want to go through life being able to handle things normally again. It terrifies me even right now going "what if you give up?"
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Hi, I’m new here!! I’m praying I don’t get judged for this. But, back in late May of 2022 ( literally right before I graduated high school), I added this one random girl from my school on Snapchat. She posted something about a graduation party , so I swiped up on her story basically saying how I can’t believe we’re almost graduated. She replied and we had a really short and simple conversation. The next day ( i believe) , we started talking a lot , and I just so happened to see her at the highschool when we were grabbing our graduation outfits and doing the rehearsal. When I saw her irl, I kinda got turned off ( I heard she was kinda crazy) , and on top of that , she was a little ugly irl. I remember seeing her Snapchat bio , and she was close friends with my female cousin ( a year younger than me) , who I happened to experiment sexually with when I was 10-11 years old. I remember going to work later that day and having sort of a lightbulb flick thought ( it wasn’t a good thought though) , what if my cousin told her about what happened when we were younger? So I started to kind of panic and immediately distanced myself from that girl. I also experimented sexually with one of my female friends when I was 10-11 , and from that day onwards, I’ve been pretty much living in paranoia and a little bit of guilt about someone finding out and my life being ruined . On top of that, It’s gotten worse to now sometimes I wonder if a girl I added off of quick add ( Snapchat) is underage even if they told me they were 18+ or had 18 and above in their bio, and I get so much guilt and anxiety about that. I even had a quick thought last February on what if I did something inappropriate with my younger cousin when I was 15-16 but I just can’t exactly remember when it happened , and it still eats me alive when I think about it, because I don’t know if it happened or not. I’m sorry for the long vent, I just wish I felt normal again. No matter how much I try to do things that old me used to do, life always feels “ off”. I always kept the top part about when I was younger a secret up until early (ish ) 2024, then I vented to one of my best friends and he told me that that’s a normal thing to do at a young age. Since then, I have told multiple friends and they all say they did similar stuff, but my brain just can’t accept that. Please help me, I quite literally overthink everything nowadays. 2021 was the last full year that I felt normal ( coincidentally, the best year of my life so far) . It’s not just about sexual related things either, sometimes I’ll wonder if I messed up something at work or hit a car while driving/hit someone and drove off. I just wanna live my life how I was supposed to live it after highschool ( carefree and happy) before whatever it is ( I think it’s ocd) hit me unexpectedly. Thanks to anyone who read this , I just needed to pour it out regardless of how negative I felt typing this, I hope someone can relate , because I feel so alone in my head at times.
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I can't live with OCD anymore. It's ruining my life. I feel like I'm being constantly bullied in my own mind all day everyday. I don't know if what I think and feel is ever real or normal or okay, what is me and what is the OCD thoughts. I don't know if any of my experiences are normal. I'm exhausted from picking apart every single conversation I ever have with anyone until I'm strung out by a vague and ambiguous feeling of guilt. I'm tired of feeling like I'm a bad person and feeling scared all the time and not knowing why and having my brain spin me out on an endless spiralling train of thoughts that never goes anywhere and just makes me feel disconnected from everything and everyone around me. I don't know what I feel and if what I feel is normal or if anything I am doing is real and actually me or if I'm 'losing my mind.' I don't even know if this makes any sense. I get into these states of mind where every thought in my head and everything I feel and perceive makes me question my own sanity. I don't know if anyone likes me because I have absolutely no concept of what I am actually like. I feel completely lost and confused CONSTANTLY.
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