Catlove9

Date posted: 1y

Intrusive urges getting worse 😔

I have horrible harm intrusive urges and they are getting so much worse. It’s feeling like I’m about to act on them and that I’m so close to doing it. It also is starting to feel like I want to do it. I am really doing my best to accept them and not ruminate but I am really struggling and nothing is helping. I am very scared because it feels like I am getting weaker at holding myself back and I want this to just go away. Any advice would be great.

Harm OCD

Hyucklechuckles

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

When I was in this situation, the thing that helped was to make myself stop thinking or engaging and focus on self care and frivolous activities. My own harm OCD was related to real events and tied to major depression and poor self image. so I spent a lot of time not engaging with the news and focusing on romancing myself 💀 Idk if that’s helpful at all. I’m not in your brain, you know? I just found that, over time, i started to “forget” the problem. I still get this kind of OCD spiral and it’s hands down the worst for me, but I have a strong understanding NOW that I’m not inherently evil or bad, so it’s easier to sit or meditate and let it pass. Not easy, just easier. And I haven’t felt in any real danger of hurting anyone in years.

Catlove9

Date posted: 1y

@Hyucklechuckles This is helpful. I do have a poor self image and I know I need to work on that. I hate having these urges. I should probably stop analyzing why I’m having them as well.

Hyucklechuckles

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Catlove9 I can see this. Real recognizes real. Try to immediately do something else. I started watching cute movies or eating cake or making myself dress nice and walk in the park. Really my goal was to romanticize myself and focus a LOT on self love. Like a LOT😤💙 I needed to learn that I was just an average person and that I didn’t need to be anything other than an average person among average people. Not good. Not bad. Not even something in between. Just a complex human person, no different than other complex human people. When I was at my worst I believed I was a monster and that my loved ones would find out and kill me and I’d disappear like a horror movie. Which …. Honestly was absolutely depression speaking through the OCD. Humanizing myself took years (like literally 2 years) but it was well worth it. Good luck!! 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

Catlove9

Date posted: 1y

@Hyucklechuckles This is VERY helpful. I deal with false memory as well and all around I just feel like a monster and I hate it. I am going to try being a little easier on myself. I focus on all my mistakes. I really appreciate your help!

Hyucklechuckles

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Catlove9 OMG IVE BEEN THERE!!! I can’t wait to hear all about your healing journey. Forgive yourself for your mistakes and be kinder to the little kid inside you who needs real love. You’ve GOT this 🖤🖤🖤🖤

Catlove9

Date posted: 1y

@Hyucklechuckles Thank you!

OCDVIC

Date posted: 1y

I feel the same way and i feel like my anxiety is just going all day 😔

OCDVIC

Date posted: 1y

Tbh i think we should just stop analyzing why this is happening. I hate saying this because i feel like i cant but i try but it wont stop.

Catlove9

Date posted: 1y

@OCDVIC I’m so scared. It just feels like it’s going to happen and I don’t have a choice 😔

OCDVIC

Date posted: 1y

Same but ocd makes it feel as real as it can and im going through a lapse and it got worst day by day

Catlove9

Date posted: 1y

@OCDVIC This is where I am too 😭

Catlove9

Date posted: 25w

What do you say to OCD when you have harm urges?

I am struggling right now with intrusive harm urges. They feel real and it feels like I am going to act any second. It feels like I have to hold myself back, which is a scary thoughts. I am trying so hard not to compulse, but does anyone have tips on what they do in these situations?

grellen2000

Date posted: 24w

Intrusive thoughts (21+ please)

I need advice for intrusive thoughts. I used to feel like I could handle them. They weren’t nearly as bad as the things that related to my actual life. But now, I’m suffering. I haven’t had a sexual experience in over a year that didn’t involve constant intrusive thoughts. Most are somehow related to kids and I keep chasing off the thoughts but it’s so bad. I know you’re supposed to ignore them but I don’t know how I can just ignore that and continue what I’m doing. But they’re coming on stronger. I had one earlier I could not get rid of just as things finished so the thought came on strongly just before my orgasm hit and now I feel absolutely disgusting. I hated the thought and I know it’s not me and it was not enjoyable but it still feels like I was getting off to it. I feel sick. I’m so fucking tired of these thoughts. They’re in my every day life too and it’s all the time. I just want it to stop but ignoring it feels so wrong. What should I do?

Anonymousssssss

Date posted: 24w

Help

I deal pretty heavily with this. The last couple days, I’ve had what I think are urges. Something pops into my head intrusively and then what stems from that is me WANTING to just indulge in it even though it’s gross. I get worried bc I used to struggle w thoughts about my dad for a long time until eventually I just purposely thought of him while self pleasuring and got off to it. While that’s something I did, it is NOT me. It all stemmed from my mental health declining a couple years back, I was never this way before. So I get worried that it almost happened or might happen with my pocd cuz I could never live with myself if it did.

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