Terrible day

@december08 Thank you💜

@Fairysparkles That makes a lot of sense. Unfortunately a lot of people at my bible college are talking about how they experience Gods presence all the time which makes it harder for me since I haven’t felt his presence for a couple of weeks now and its making the intrusive thoughts worse :/ did you also deal with these thoughts? My main concern is the nagging feeling which comes when the doubt comes in and the intrusive thoughts don’t stop, I literally feel like I don’t know who God is in these moments or if he’s even there. Its hard to bounce back and forth the whole day :( But thank you for your kind words and your prayers, I appreciate that a lot💜

@Blumenkohl1 - When people at your college claim that they feel God's presence all the time, ask yourself, what does that really mean? Saying that you feel God's presence can mean something different for each individual. For example, someone can feel the sun shining on them and say that it is a sign that God is watching over them. Some people just notice God's presence while others overlook it and miss it completely. I wouldn't compare their claims of feeling God's presence to your lack of feeling God's presence. That's like "comparing apples to oranges". Doesn't really make sense. Our relationship with God is a process and the journey is different for everyone. You are unique and therefore your relationship to God is unique and special.

@Fairysparkles That makes a lot of sense. Thank you a lot for that insight :) I cling to the times when I was able to feel Gods presence and when he revealed himself to me, eventhough the enemy tries to tell me otherwise

@Anonymous Thank you so much for your kind words💜 I hope I will have some change in the intensity of the thoughts soon because it has been heavy the last days, I feel like I am on a constant roller coaster 🥲

@Waging War Against OCD Thank you so much! I will definitely look that up and will look at your book!

@Redknight I would love to chat with you!

@Blumenkohl1 Awesome! You can totally just vent if you need to. Is there anything in particular that is making you question your faith?

@Redknight It basically feels like I don’t know Jesus anymore. I get a climbse of him every know and then but at the moment it feels like I don’t really know him or that he doesn’t exist and its awful, especially because I am surrounded by people who believe with all their heart and have no idea what it feels like to have doubts :( it just sucks because I have no idea how it can get better… like i know that Jesus exists but at the same time I dont 😭

@Blumenkohl1 The worst thing is that I am so afraid of losing my faith completely and will go to hell. Its so frustrating

@Blumenkohl1 That sounds awful. I’m sorry to hear you’re going through this. Let me ask you this though: What is your definition of the word “faith?” What does it mean to you?

@Redknight Faith means to trust something even though it isn’t proven but yet you know that it’s true and real I would say

@Blumenkohl1 That’s a good definition! Do you think it’s possible to apply it to your situation? God commands us to believe. Belief is different than a complete knowledge. Knowing is undeniable, but faith is trusting. I don’t know about you, but I’ve never been able to see the wind. Yet, I can feel the evidence that it exists. I choose to believe even though I cannot see it. Are you ok if I share a couple of scriptures with you?

@Redknight Yeah thats so true! I truly believe in God but it feels like the devil knocks out my faith a couple times a day and I can’t grasp the reality of God in these moments which scares me a lot, or I get intrusive thoughts telling me that I would feel the same way if I would pray to buddha which doesn’t make sense at all but it comes with anxiety so it feels real. I would love to hear some scriptures!