stargirlll
- Date posted
- 1y
:(
it feels like i’m not interested in boys now and that just scares me, like i always have been and wanted their attention but now it feels like i don’t. i just want all of this to be over :(
jpell0wjpell0w
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- 1y
Attraction can fluid when at times of anxiety or when we put a focus on it! OCD of course doubts everything and will latch onto the focused thought. I have had a few moments myself of questioning but if you dig deep down you will find your true self through all of the doubt! I’m sorry you’re experiencing these distressing thoughts!
jpell0wjpell0w
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- 1y
@kiki.02 Well I think of it more philosophically in the sense that anxiety and ocd does not have an assigned sexuality and or gender role, so what I mean is that we ourselves before anxiety or OCD maybe have known or identified our attractions, but when OCD and anxiety hit they tend to make our emotions and or attractions feel fluid in the sense of questioning or doubting!
jpell0wjpell0w
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- 1y
@kiki.02 But given that it’s common to imagine scenarios in our OCD minds this to that OCD feeds into that.
jpell0wjpell0w
- Date posted
- 1y
@kiki.02 Well of course you don’t have to go through with it! You ultimately have the choice in the end, OCD cannot make you in reality do anything, its purpose is to send you misfirings in the mind and trick you into thinking you have too or you are or whatever it might be! Sort of like I know I’m LGBTQ+ I know I’m not straight and I also know I’m not a “P” given that I have POCD related thoughts! But OCD will try and work endlessly into trying to convince me otherwise.
jpell0wjpell0w
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- 1y
@kiki.02 Of course! Same too you! We all can recover! 😊
ctc1999ctc1999
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- 1y
@jpell0w I love how you put this!!! I am a cis-gendered woman currently experiencing the Gender Identity Theme and sometimes, it gets so bad go the point where it feels like losing control or like my reality is morphing. But like you said, they are misfirings that feel so convincing. Deep down, I know I'm cis, I never felt any differently and I know that being bisexual is not a "sign" of me being a man. But since this episode started, it can definitely scare me into thinking so or that I should be afraid of my sexual orientation, even though all my life, I have been very content and secure with who I am!
jpell0wjpell0w
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- 1y
@ctc1999 Precisely! Our true self’s will always be separate from the OCD mind!
ctc1999ctc1999
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- 1y
@jpell0w You are so right!!! It just gets so scary trying to differentiate between the two because they feel as one at times. But I guess that's another thing, maybe I am ruminating too much and need to just sit with the uncertainty maybe??
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 1y
I feel the same, like my attraction to women has jus vanished. Or even when I do find one attractive my Brian will say something about how I can find guys attractive the same way too
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- 21w
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