afraid of my birthday

The day after tomorrow is my birthday and I become 18 years old. I'm scared that at 0:00 I'm going to get the same intrusive triggering words related to pocd inside my head, as a self sabotaging mechanism, staining and ruining the entire day and the memory of a once in a lifetime event forever. I don't know what to do. Hoping for the best doesn't get anywhere. Those thoughts will probably happen because I didn't get over them. It's a two-word intrusive thought and they keep appearing everytime I do something important to disrupt me and ruin the present, like when I'm practicing a passage on my intrusment... it appears automatically and i have to sit with it, with something so horrible and disgusting. I don't know.

POCD

stxarly

Date posted: 2y

I went through the same thing when I turned 18 and the intrusive thoughts have been happening since then. My point is, relax and take your time to realise that your fear stems from having OCD and not from turning of age at all. Keep on fighting those intrusive thoughts and it'll get easier with time. Battling OCD is a tough one and the road is long and painful, but it's totally worth it.

overthinker1234

Date posted: 2y

my birthday is Wednesday and I am fearing the same thing ):

overthinker1234

Date posted: 2y

my intrusive thoughts are awful

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