IhateOCD99
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ocdcarleighocdcarleigh
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- 5y
Its just your OCD messing with your mind. Trust me, things will get better soon. Do you see a therapist?
MaroonedDreamsMaroonedDreams
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- 5y
Our brains can fool us :/ OCD is partly a biological problem, i.e. the brain not working quite right.
ocdcarleighocdcarleigh
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Just re commenting this as my keyboard mucked up. It might help though seeing one. Have you gone to your local doctor and spoken to them about this? They might be able to get you referred to somewhere as they did that with me and I'm getting CBT soon. I know exactly how you feel. I'm suffering from both hOCD and harm OCD. I've had both in the past but this time it's worse and it's ruining my life. No matter how real it feels, it's just your OCD. It always wants to make you believe the opposite to who you really are.
Connie101Connie101
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- 5y
I'm so sorry you're going through this. But you are strong and you can get through this
swipxswipx
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Due to low key anxeity. Sadly we have to accept it even though it really feels so real.
IhateOCD99IhateOCD99
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No I can't afford a therapist. I've hocd for a year now, and the last couple of months it became much worse. The thoughts feel so real that I have a lot of panic attacks. I don't know what to do anymore..
IhateOCD99IhateOCD99
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Thanks for your responses. I know it is better to go to my doctor, but something is holding me back. Sometimes I don't even know anymore if it's HOCD.. Today I had a panic attack, and my head felt so heavy (filled with anxiety and fear), I just don't know what the heck is going on. Everything what I say to myself, seems a lie. I always keep getting thoughts like 'but what if you're just homophobic', or 'what if all your crushes on girls were fake'. And the most scary part of the last thought is that it really really feels fake. Atm I just have no attraction to girls and that scares the shit out of me. I'm very sorry you're going through this as well, it's awful.. Today, I had to keep searching on the internet for 'HOCD tests', or 'HOCD VS denial' video's, and when I did, the panic attack started. I don't know how to describe the feeling I have, but it feels like a very heavy / black feeling in my head from which I just cannot escape from. The only thing I enjoy these days are the moments where I can sleep. My day starts with Hocd thoughts and ends with it, non stop.
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Ii spoke w my bf this weekend and he mentioned that he has thoughts just like me, but his don't bother him like me. I then felt a lot better and he tried dissecting one of his thoughts like I usually do and realized it felt more real for him after. That made me realize that none of my thoughts were ever true and I blew them up. However, yesterday I had a thought ab “wait wut if you liked that one guy? How dare you bc youre supposed to love your bf and not secretly like someone else” and treated it as I usually did bc I accidentally wanted to see if it was true but didn't rlly but I would check to see if it was there and now that thought feels so so so real now and I feel really bad how do Ik it's not real? I feel so bad and guilty bc lividly this makes 0 sense but it feels so prominent. It felt pretty real when it happened yesterday too. And now I feel awful bc how is it possible after my clarity the other day? Why does it feel so prominent 😞😞😞
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