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- 5y ago
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- 5y ago
Its just your OCD messing with your mind. Trust me, things will get better soon. Do you see a therapist?
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- 5y ago
Our brains can fool us :/ OCD is partly a biological problem, i.e. the brain not working quite right.
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- 5y ago
Just re commenting this as my keyboard mucked up. It might help though seeing one. Have you gone to your local doctor and spoken to them about this? They might be able to get you referred to somewhere as they did that with me and I'm getting CBT soon. I know exactly how you feel. I'm suffering from both hOCD and harm OCD. I've had both in the past but this time it's worse and it's ruining my life. No matter how real it feels, it's just your OCD. It always wants to make you believe the opposite to who you really are.
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- 5y ago
I'm so sorry you're going through this. But you are strong and you can get through this
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- 5y ago
Due to low key anxeity. Sadly we have to accept it even though it really feels so real.
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- 5y ago
No I can't afford a therapist. I've hocd for a year now, and the last couple of months it became much worse. The thoughts feel so real that I have a lot of panic attacks. I don't know what to do anymore..
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- 5y ago
Thanks for your responses. I know it is better to go to my doctor, but something is holding me back. Sometimes I don't even know anymore if it's HOCD.. Today I had a panic attack, and my head felt so heavy (filled with anxiety and fear), I just don't know what the heck is going on. Everything what I say to myself, seems a lie. I always keep getting thoughts like 'but what if you're just homophobic', or 'what if all your crushes on girls were fake'. And the most scary part of the last thought is that it really really feels fake. Atm I just have no attraction to girls and that scares the shit out of me. I'm very sorry you're going through this as well, it's awful.. Today, I had to keep searching on the internet for 'HOCD tests', or 'HOCD VS denial' video's, and when I did, the panic attack started. I don't know how to describe the feeling I have, but it feels like a very heavy / black feeling in my head from which I just cannot escape from. The only thing I enjoy these days are the moments where I can sleep. My day starts with Hocd thoughts and ends with it, non stop.
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- 24w ago
Everything feels so real. I think learning about non-offending pedophiles has really screwed with me. I feel like I’m not even doing compulsions anymore like I genuinely cannot remember if I do them or not and the groinal responses are messing with me. I keep having intrusive dreams and I’m in that half asleep state and I feel nothing after that or I feel weird like a good weird, I don’t know. It’s a really weird feeling when I get those thoughts but I don’t like them, I don’t think. All I know is, I keep seeking reassurance and I feel like I don’t have OCD because the way I feel, like the way I get worked up isn’t the same as others. Whenever I try to watch a show, like 9-1-1 or daily dose of sunshine, I feel like I’m watching something I shouldn’t be. Or if I’m just on my phone, I feel like something is going to happen. I feel red flags whenever I’m on my phone, like somehow cp will appear. I know that OCD is the doubting disorder but my god, this is just crazy. I feel like I’m going crazy. Everything is just nonstop, it’s so constant and I’m genuinely scared that I’ll do something when I get out of my room. I don’t know anymore, this whole OCD thing is just making me lose my mind.
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- 20w ago
I don't know what's real. I don't know who I am, I don't know if everything I believe is made up, all my emotions, my memories..it feels fake, I'm stressed the fuck out because I can't even tell if my past is real
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- 20w ago
Lately, I have been able to manage my OCD thoughts kind of. They’re still there but I kind of push them away? I know that pushing them away doesn’t help but it’s been my only way to survive. I get scared often about things like clothes or my voice or how I present myself. I get scared that I want to dress differently or act differently and it scares me. I know for a fact I don’t want boobs or anything like that, but my mind constantly is like “What if?” and it kills me. It has ruined everything for me. Sometimes I can’t even look in the mirror because I get scared that I won’t like what I see. I’ve also been afraid because I find myself relating to many female characters, or I want to act like them. Like Pearl from Steven Universe. I want to be graceful and elegant like her, but I don’t want to be a girl you know? My mind constantly pushes these thoughts of what if and images. Because I am not like most guys. Which I know is okay. It just freaks me out. It makes me question every aspect of my being. I know who I am, but I know that the only way to move forward is to accept that maybe I don’t.. It’s just a lot.
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