i just want to cry. i literally had a meltdown in my room earlier today and another one in the car and i still just want to cry. everything is getting to be so much. everything around me feels so big and i’m just so tiny and helpless. my parents don’t know that i’m going through this and that’s making everything so much worse. they keep asking me why i’m so quiet and why i’m so down today and i just say that i’m fine and that it’s just a weird off day. it hurts me so bad to do this by myself, lie to them about why i’m sad, and cry by myself in my room because they don’t know about anything. i practically tear up every time they ask me why i seem so down. i’m just so sad. i don’t think i’m depressed or anything because this is the first time in a while that i’ve had a slump like this. i just think it’s an off day.

i know they care and love me and want to help me, i’m just so scared of how they will react. i have HOCD and being totally honest, my family is pretty homophobic. i don’t want them to think i’m questioning my sexuality or anything like that. i just feel like they’ll take it the wrong way. and even if i do tell them and they understand that i’m not going through some sexuality crisis, i feel like they’ll still be sad or disappointed that i’m even obsessing about a topic like this. idk what to do anymoreee

oh my gosh thank you so much. you have no idea how much you’ve helped me. i’ve been feeling so alone and so by myself and these few comments you’ve shared really helped me get out of this funk i was stuck in today. i would totally give you a hug right now if i could ahahah. thank you so much again!! ??

thank you sooo much. that’s a really good idea, i didn’t even know christian ocd therapists existed!! i’ve been struggling with my faith a lot and feeling very distant from god for a little while because of this ocd...maybe going to a christian therapist will help that as well. it still is very scary to open up like that to my parents but we’ll see!! hopefully i can muster up the strength to do it