Help please

Yes, experienced it both drunk and/or high. Honestly I feel like mine are worse when I'm under the influence. It starts off better but rolls in worse later

Can they also arise as vivid images when drunk? I am afraid I have cheated and I remember going to a couch to sit in a bar and had a vivid image of a guy kissing me on there.

And then panicked something happend earlier that night.

Oh okay, sorry to hear that. I hope you are doing better! I am in a episode and I dont know if this was kind of an hallucination/vivid imagining or if this did really happen earlier that evening. I was pretty drunk and long awake

This is so crazy :( i hope so deeply that these images are just imagined.. I dont know what to believe.. I remember thinking how could I have done that, I wanna die. Hmn yea.. thank you for being that open. Well I didnt use it to cover but I did reassurance the whole eve ing by telling my friend everything so he could tell me if I would have forgot anything.

Oh I would like to know everything :) but I dont want you to do compulsions

I want to know how to answer these thoughts and accept uncertainty when my thoughts and vivid images drunk tell me I have cheated on my bf. I can not stand this. And also .. I only remember parts of the night, but I remember the exact thoughts that I had even thought I can rarely remember each conversation I had?

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It only happens after drunken nights I dont 100% remember. The vivid images also arise when sober. I dont know if the vivid images from being drunk is a false memory or real. I dont know. I just know something triggered me really bad while drinking.

Yeah, it really does. I just want to feel normal again towards my bf knowing I wouldnt do such things