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Username: DeeDoo

Date posted: 50w ago

I just want to feel normal

Hi, I don't really know where to start but I was diagnosed with OCD around 2 years old so it's something I've been aware of my entire life and something I've been struggling to manage for as long as I can remember. I've never received OCD therapy but I had started going to an art therapist after a su*cide attempt for about 2 months in my teen years. When I was younger my parents didn't want me on medications or going through therapy as they felt it was "too intense" of a treatment for me, so I had tried many herbal and homeopathic supplements to help treat my OCD, though it helped with my vitamin deficiencies it didn't do much for my OCD. During my late teens, my primary doctor finally decided to start me on medications for my anxiety, depression, and OCD. I have been on Zoloft, Prozac, Wellbutrin, had been prescribed emergency Lorazepam and Xanax, and recently tried Paxil, but I just don't feel like any have helped. Over the years, I've basically struggled with every typical OCD symptom and it has only gotten harder and harder to get by. When I talk to my friends about it they tell me that these thoughts are normal and everyone goes through it but I feel like they're dismissing the degree to which my symptoms are becoming rather debilitating and don't really understand what I'm trying to since none of them have OCD themselves. I just feel so alone and that nobody understand, I'm tired of having these thoughts and I just want a way out. Does anyone have any tips for like medications or treatments that help? I just want to be normal.

Username: StrawberrySunStrawberrySun

Date posted: 50w ago

CBD has really helped me with my ocd

Username: DeeDooDeeDoo

Date posted: 50w ago

@StrawberrySun Really? I've been told by other people who deal with anxiety and depression to try it but I've been too scared to, I don't even know where to start. Do you like smoke it or like is it like edible stuff?

Username: StrawberrySunStrawberrySun

Date posted: 50w ago

@DKha Lots of cbd has nothing that gets you high in it at all (make sure you read what's in it to make sure) but yeah they even give it to kids and animals it's helped a crazy amount and I ever smoke weed and it helps more then that,you can take it in every way you can think of they have a type for it but I just take this brand called just cbd and I get the ones that only have cbd in them and they come in yummy candies like the rainbow sour candys and stuff and it's probably the thing that's helped my ocd the most passivly

Username: StrawberrySunStrawberrySun

Date posted: 50w ago

@DKha And you can even order the kind I was talking about on Amazon and of course smoke shops but the packageing shouldn't say anything but cbd in it or else you'll accidentally eat a edible haha I can send the link of the stuff I buy on here tho it's completely just cbd and nothing to get you high in it like even tho I smoke I still can't do edibles and also I have a very low tolerance so I make sure the kind I get has only cbd in it and it don't make you feel weird or anything the most you'll feel is like at the end of the day you'll kinda be like "huh wow today was a lot easier I delt with stuff way better and was able to actually breath" kinda thing

Username: DeeDooDeeDoo

Date posted: 50w ago

@StrawberrySun I'll check that out, thank you so much! Maybe I'll give it a try once I do more research on it ❤️

Username: DeeDooDeeDoo

Date posted: 50w ago

@StrawberrySun Can you share the link with me please? That would help so much, it's okay if you can't though. Thank you again, I appreciate your advice!! 🥰

Username: StrawberrySunStrawberrySun

Date posted: 50w ago

I did have to try a few brands before I got the right one for me tho because others are weaker like iv tried cbd honey and cbd cigarettes and vape juice and those didn't help much but I landed on this brand and like with this same brand there's a certain amount of CBD in each like different packaging you buy and the ones with more are more expensive but still it's just cbd just more of it in each peice but yeah lol sorry for all the long paragraphs

Username: DeeDooDeeDoo

Date posted: 50w ago

@StrawberrySun Don't apologize omg you've been so helpful, gave me all good info on CBD, it really means a lot!!! Thank you for sharing your experience with me and giving me tips, I just want to be able to go about my day without feeling so bad as I do now, I just want it to be easier so you were definitely much help :)

Username: StrawberrySunStrawberrySun

Date posted: 50w ago

https://justcbdstore.com/product/750mg-cbd-gummies-blue-raspberry-rings/

Username: DeeDooDeeDoo

Date posted: 50w ago

@StrawberrySun Thank you!!!

Username: StrawberrySunStrawberrySun

Date posted: 50w ago

Still look into it and make sure there's just CBD in it to be safe but yeah and they're at smoke shops usually :) and last thing CBD has also prevented my seizers that I had daily (from stress) and just overall body aches and pain and sometimes it gives me energy and no problem much love :)

Username: DeeDooDeeDoo

Date posted: 50w ago

@StrawberrySun Oh that's good to hear, I'm wondering if it'll help with some of my other problems too like some neurological and gastrointestinal issues and other things like fatigue, I'm glad it has helped with your seizures and chronic pain, I hope it can help me too 💘

Username: StrawberrySunStrawberrySun

Date posted: 50w ago

@DKha I hope so too :)

Username: PrissprissPrisspriss

Date posted: 50w ago

I know the local smoke shops sell them u gotta be over 18 but they do have gummies and also CBD joints I guess u could call them that less than $5 here in Texas but don't think they are that much pricier in other cities.

Username: DeeDooDeeDoo

Date posted: 49w ago

@Prisspriss I'd have to check it out, I'm in Chicago so I don't know what the prices are, I'm over 18 at least so that's a plus, I just have to check out some shops, thank you for the advice :)

Username: JenniesOCDBrainJenniesOCDBrain

Date posted: 49w ago

hey, i can't imagine how tough it's been to carry this since you were little, especially without the full support you needed back then. it's really hard when friends don't get the weight of what you're dealing with, and feeling alone in it all can be so overwhelming. 😔 i've been down that lonely road with ocd too, and what made a difference for me was this free AI OCD therapy tool called "unstuck" ([www.keepunstuck.com/try](http://www.keepunstuck.com/try)) my ocd therapist shared with me. it'll be especially helpful for you because it offers personalized, step-by-step support like an ERP therapist would, helping you tackle those debilitating thoughts without feeling judged or misunderstood. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really think it can help you because it's changed my life. lmk if you have qs or just want to talk more! <3

Username: DeeDooDeeDoo

Date posted: 49w ago

@JenniesOCDBrain Thank you so much ❤️ I'll try it out and let you know if I have any questions or need anything :) your help means a lot

Username: heiz

Date posted: 5y ago

I’ve never been the type of person to open up about myself but these last 3 months have been the hardest, worst time of my life. I’m 16 years old, and I’ve been anxious and had anxiety my whole life. Over the last couple years I’ve learned how to cope with my anxiety and be a happy person. But one night in January, i was watching random videos on YouTube, and a video about serial killers came on. I’ve always been interested in crime shows/documentaries, so I didn’t think twice before deciding to click on it. In the middle of the video I had this intrusive thought that said “why do people murder loved ones or innocent people” and “what does it feel like to kill somebody” I am not aggressive, or have ever caused harm, but these thoughts scared me to death. I felt a instant shock of anxiety and panic immediately. I thought something was wrong with me. I turned my phone off and went to bed hoping the next day I would forget about it. Unfortunately I never forgot about the thoughts, and still have intrusive thoughts that affect my day to day life. I feel so hopeless, even after seeing a therapist, and being on Prozac for 5 weeks I don’t feel a difference. Every time I try to be positive and tell myself “they’re just thoughts” ocd tells me, “yeah sure, but what if you did these things”? “What if you WANT to do these things”? I stress that I might actually want to do these horrible things secretly and am convinced that one day I will commit these crimes. I don’t know what to do anymore, I feel so hopeless, and even being around my girlfriend who used to bring me so much joy, I still can’t be my regular self. Please I feel so hopeless and sad I can’t even do the things I used to enjoy, remembering I have these thoughts is with me 24/7 from the second I wake up to the second I fall asleep. Anybody have advice? Sorry for the rant I just needed to get this off my chest. I just want to be normal again and enjoy being around my family and my girlfriend again

Harm OCD

Username: cloudy1409

Date posted: 2y ago

new diagnosis

Last night I had the worst panic attack I have ever experienced and was having some very graphic intrusive thoughts. I am new to this OCD community as my therapist has thought I have had it for a while but confirmed today that that’s what I am probably struggling with. I am on some pretty intense medication related to my misdiagnosis’s and feeling lost about where to start. I wish I didn’t suffer from these thoughts and that I could live a “normal” life. How does one start living and not surviving ?

Username: a.non2

Date posted: 1y ago

numbness

I got diagnosed with OCD a few months ago after getting plagued with intrusive thoughts last November. It’s been present in my life since I was younger but didn’t become truly debilitating until last November. I’ve been in therapy since May, and I started an SSRI. I’m a Christian, and I’ve struggled a lot with my faith since this started. I’ve had a hard time with ERP because I fear it’s not going to help and actually make things worse. I have also had a lot of emotional turmoil from family trauma and marriage issues. I’ve become so hopeless and numb and desensitized that I don’t know how to continue forward. I don’t feel like I’m able to talk to anyone about it because it’s taboo, so I feel like a fraud and like I don’t deserve to do things I enjoy or hang out with people I love. I do want to get better but I also have a fear that I don’t actually want to. I feel like my whole life is ruined and that I’ll never enjoy living again.

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