I've been fine for months, I had my attraction to man back, until two days ago. I was on tiktok a lesbian couple triggered me and I don't know why, I started to feel like I was attracred to the Masc One, but she's not completely masculine, Just androgynous. Now i've been spiraling and I feel like I like women.
Me too I had a few really good weeks dreamed about men and was feeling good but then I had a lesbian dream and now I’ve spiralled 😔
I thought I was ok, i've been totally fine since March... I honestly don't know why it's happening again
I was okay and still had thoughts but was able to cope. SO-OCD came back last Wednesday and it feels like I’m experiencing OCD for the first time. Sending you strength.
Sending hugs to you❤️
You are okay. I dealt with this few years back. I thought I was attracted to men if I would look at them or if a got a sensation down there. But, that’s just your OCD trust me. A thought is just a thought. I find it beneficial to make humor out of it, saying maybe I do like girls maybe I don’t. When a thought disturbs you, you wanna yell back at it. But don’t bc then every time you have a thought like that you will become anxious. Just let it me. You will be okay, you got this!
Thank you❤️❤️
I think I did something I shouldnt have... I reasearched comphet on tiktok and saw a video of a girl explaining how she realised that first she wasnt bi and then she was a lesbian. She was talking all about how when she was with men she was craving "male validation" and wasnt actually attracted to men and that she confused platonnic and romantic love. and that whe she really thought about she realised that she loved being loved and desired by men but that she didnt specifically like men or wasnt attracted to men. She just found them attractive and was not attracted. And that when she broke up with her bf and stop dating man she realised how much more she could feel and how thinking about men gave her the ic. And I real all the comments and everyone was like omg omg omg. Anyways im sooo triggered because I feel like I could relate on some level. Im not sure if I like my bf for who he is or that i love how he loves me. And at first I used to calm my OCD by saying noo noo I love how he loves me but if I imagine breaking up with him it feels like it will be my last time with a men... what is happenning!!!
I’m scared so bad rn I feel like I might commit . There was a trans girl on TikTok and I thought she was attractive and I’m scared because she’s trans. Is that gay I don’t wanna be gay and now I’m freaking out. It was a guy transitioned into a girl and they don’t look like a guy at all.
The thoughts still exist. For the last couple months I’ve been able to say I don’t care and lean into the comfort of being uncertain. Im having a tough time with some things personally right now and guess what decides to show up… Anyways, I’ve been trying to get used to the fact that maybe I’m bisexual with a romantic preference for men (I’m married and love my husband) but when you start going through your compulsions it’s soooo easy for everything to blur out. To my knowledge I’ve never had a crush on a woman but I’ve most definitely watched same sex porn and have thought women are hot and beautiful, then come the thoughts about comp het and how I’ve never been an overly sexual person so that MUST mean something. Ugh idk, just looking for someone to chat with I guess!
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