Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

Anyone else?

So now that Bcz I’ve done so much mental testing to gay sexual and romantically scenarios, it’s like my brain has this new thought process. So I’m a guy but my brain will say “imagine being a girl and then doing something sexual with a guy” and this isn’t even fair bcz obviously if I imagined a girl getting fcked imma get a boner, bc I like girls. And so now I spent last half hour doing mental testing and focusing on being a girl and from her POV having sex w a guy, now I know for now I don’t like it but i don’t have 100% certainty, just like 80%. I’ve had TOCD in the last and beat it but this isn’t even TOCD, it’s just my brain trynna make me gay in any way possible and I don’t like it.

Sexual Orientation OCD

Username: yessyessyessyess

Date posted: 1y ago

I just did this, imagined having sex with a woman. And now my mind says I want to explore sexually with women. I’ve been crying all week in distress about not wanting, and now it’s telling me I genuinely want to. I don’t want to, and then for a brief second I thought I was going to become a man. HOCD is the worst. I hate it so much.

Username: yessyessyessyess

Date posted: 1y ago

@yessyess I know it was a groinal, but I smiled. But now I feel even more confused. It’s telling me this groinal means it’s true.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

@yessyess I hate this shit aswell, the arguement it comes with is so confusing. I know reassurance isn’t good but if ur strugglin w it real bad rn the thing taht keeps me going is just telling myself, if someone was actually gay 1. They don’t get scared of it and 2. They don’t need to “test” the weirdest scenarios bc they just know

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

@yessyess Wait so is it like for you, you imagined having sex as reassurance, but then during the reassurance test it looks like u want that? Bcz that’s what happens to me

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

@yessyess Do u have social media or something I can msg on? I wanna know if my experience is the same with HOCD, I feel like my thoughts are very unique

Username: yessyessyessyess

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous This happened to me right now and now it’s making me feel like I wanted to be a lesbian or bisexual all along. I went from panicking to being calm. And the calmness is freaking me out. I’ve been crying all week about not wanting it and suddenly it’s telling me I want it. It’s so hard not to get reassurance. It makes me feel like this is the end of the road and that I need to go explore my sexuality. But I don’t want to. I don’t even know what’s real or false anymore. It’s hard to trust that what I’m experiencing SO-OCD/HOCD

Username: yessyessyessyess

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous I’ve deleted my social media because everything is triggering me

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

@yessyess Same, tiktok rn literally every guy I see I can’t even cope w this anymore

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

@yessyess Trust me it is, if it wasn’t OCD, u wouldn’t be doing metal tests plain and simple. When u ever thought of a straight relationship did u ever have to spend houses mental testing about it? No

Username: yessyessyessyess

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous This makes so much sense! OCD just twists everything up, I hate it so much!

Username: Lizzie Lizzie

Date posted: 1y ago

This all sounds so typical of OCD. It’s okay to have calmer moments, it doesn’t mean it’s real, but someone with OCD will think ‘what if I feel calm because it’s the truth’, but if you have tons of anxiety you might think ‘what if this isn’t OCD because I have so much anxiety and why would it bother me so much if it wasn’t true’. At least that is how I feel. Crippling anxiety and you may feel like the thoughts are true, too little anxiety and you may feel like that thoughts are true. This is precisely what OCD does; it makes everything feel real. It’s cunning and convincing.

Username: yessyessyessyess

Date posted: 1y ago

Of course we’re going to get aroused and groinals by sexual content. But now my mind says I want to be with a woman sexually and now it feels like it’s true and that I’m repressing it. I hate OCD so much.

Username: yessyessyessyess

Date posted: 1y ago

SO-OCD will have us think our thoughts are unique. It’s a common yet isolating theme.

Username: jag92jag92

Date posted: 1y ago

I feel the same as this too!

Username: JenniesOCDBrainJenniesOCDBrain

Date posted: 1y ago

hey, i can only imagine how exhausting and frustrating this loop must feel for you, especially after dealing with tocd before. your struggle is super valid and you're not alone in this. 🖤 i've been in that loop before, and what really helped me was "unstuck" (unstuckmyocd.com/try), a free ai ocd therapy tool my therapist recommended. it'll be especially helpful for you because it provides personalized step-by-step support, just like an ocd therapist, for those moments when your brain is throwing curveballs at you. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really think it can help you because it's changed my life. lmk if you have qs or just want to talk more! <3

Username: ninkaninga

Date posted: 24w ago

Its so scary

I have no idea if this is just OCD and I’m actually just straight or i was in denial my whole life. Now it feels so scary, i feel like im realizing my true self, that ive always been gay, that im just using SO-OCD as a cover up. IT FEELS SO REAL. I even feel like others with SO-OCD dont experience this feeling and i must experience something different. Its literally a feeling like an urge to admit myself that I’m gay and it even feels like i know im gay and i was using OCD as a cover up for 6 years. I cant even describe that feeling. When i try to imagine myself with a girl in my mind it makes me feel like i like that thought like i want it😔 It feels all very very real. I think you guys with SOOCD have different feelings and you actually have OCD. I dont want these thoughts. I dont want to be gay, i dont want to feel this. But maybe i was my whole life in denial. 😭😭

Username: Fr0ggy

Date posted: 24w ago

SOOCD

This post will be for people 18+ and it is a topic on sexual attraction, if you are comfortable you can read but it’s completely up to you. I know I’m not the only woman that watches lesbian love for pleasure as we are all humans and our hormones go up. I’ve been watching lesbian love for years now (about 3 years) and in most of that time, not once did I question my sexuality until someone asked me a question that triggered my overthinking. Today after watching that, I was asking myself questions like what it would feel like to do this with a woman? How would it feel like to be with one? And because these thoughts came to my mind I freaked out because I keep thinking that I like females but never in my life and even till this day have I ever fallen in love with a women or even thought about marrying a women one day. I always want to have a husband one day and at least have a kid or two. But lately all this questioning has me confused to the point where I question if I’m bi or lesbian and if I even have SOOCD or if it’s generally just me tryna figure out my sexuality or if I’m just in denial. I am also talking to a man romantically and whenever I’m around him I feel happy and I’m always excited to talk to him and he also makes my heart flutter and my body burn for him. But because of these recent thoughts I’ve been having, it just confuses me and adds some stress. Any tips for how I can go about this?

Sexual Orientation OCD

Username: flippy15

Date posted: 15w ago

I just want to know the difference of someone who is gay vs someone who is just questioning bc of ocd. Like would you hear I’m gay im gay over and over and over again in your head but it didn’t feel right? But when I say this is a waste of my time im of course straight it feels like im lying but I know im not attracted to women at all I am certain of that. But picking a label is what i can’t settle on so this is my ocd or not

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