So I’m trying ERP and as a result I’m not able to function eat sleep properly should I back down to my ocd and just do as it wishes Or keep up with this ERP which has been failing for the last 3 months
Are you doing erp with a therapist?
If you feel comfortable, can you describe what you’re doing for ERP at all? Even in vague detail? Maybe there’s something going wrong with it that might be seen by a fresh set of eyes
@Soup Time 🥫 I legit Can’t function so if you have anything you use to limit your ocd feel free to share my brain is collapsing and it needs all the help it can get
If it’s this difficult, is there a chance you could meet with a psychiatrist and try medication? It really helped me
@Soup Time 🥫 How on earth can you manage this disorder
@scutodragon You can do it. I know you can
It’s not easy. Nothing worthwhile is easy, but yes medication can help. It can make the ERP go smoother. I’m sorry things are so hard. It’s rough that no one gets it
It seems like it’s getting REALLY hard. Have you tried calling an emergency number or going to the hospital?
No just self practice also no meditation was involved
@scutodragon Medication
Technology and its nature triggers my Ocd and does more Damage than good that’s why I couldn’t do zoom therapy and there are no therapists where I’m from
Doing what my ocd hates most I love feeling blank things on my fourms on websites I left it blank and as a result I can’t function Also my ocd hates when there is 2 things blank meaning more work and it’s harder to remember So now it’s been 3 months and I have zero progress lack of sleep Barley functional at all This ocd is a nightmare
As much as I hate to say it in my whole life the only way my ocd got over something is what I did exactly what is want the other treatments just don’t work at least for my ocd
I’m just going to find a way to get the staff on those websites to help me fill the voids i give up with erp it’s a lost case
Like pills?
I kind of want to give up sometimes this disorder is too much to bare
Nobody understands everyone just judged me this life is too hard to fix it was really meant to be this way
I know this sounds silly but I would like to share it So there is something called Minecraft schematics and I accidentally made something called a schematic group that was not deletable my ocd really wanted it to be deleted but my amazing luck the only person that could wasn’t available so I grew impatient and got banned from that place and they won’t give me a second chance and say I’m unfit to play on there because I have ocd and they gave other people second chances I reported the server to mojang but they did nothing people hate me I’m sure if it was the other way around I would have lost my access I just hate this life with ocd so so much
They don’t understand that I don’t want to do this my ocd makes me I can’t control my ocd I HATE having it SO much I hate being the outcast the one starting trouble the One in chaos the one who can’t function while seeing everyone else thrive
If I had the chance to just end it all I really would I really would trust me I don’t want to do it anymore
It’s almost 4 am and ocd isn’t letting me sleep because of the website
Where I’m from hospitals are only equipped to handle physical injury not not something mental and I don’t know what’s an emergency number or how it can help someone
I just feel like I spent so much time bowing down to this disorder and other people who were blessed with a normal perfect brain used that to their advantage And about medicine for ocd I would do it but I can’t swollow a pill
I would trade ocd for having autism adhd diabetes or even being in a wheelchair
My medication is in liquid form!
I highly recommend it!
Can I ask the name of it
And if there’s any side effects
My psychiatrist recommended me Zoloft and I had diarrhea for a little less than a week at the beginning
My theme is suicidal OCD. I’ve been doing ERP since last year November and the overall intensity of my thoughts have not reduced at all. I have these thoughts 24/7 and my life feels like a living hell. Not two minutes goes by throughout the day where I’m not suffering from relentless thoughts. I don’t want to take meds because of the side effects and my insurance is coming to an end so it’d be difficult to ween off them by myself. I’m starting to feel so hopeless because I’ve done the toughest of the toughest exposures and I’m not getting better at all. My life is a living hell and I don’t see my condition with OCD getting better anytime sooner.
I had an "OCD episode" several months back from NOT doing the compulsion. Or at least not "resolving" / dealing with the intrusive thought. What if "Not" dealing with it creates an issue that never subsides or makes you worse? This sounds dramatic, but I literally feel and believe like I was psychologically traumatized by not doing a compulsion --- which for me has been ruminating and "problem solving" to "deal" with whatever "challenge" / intrusive thought comes up. When I wasn't able to "deal" with it properly in a kind of stalemate, the "anxiety" last for at least a month. And it was severe -- brain fog, sundowning, cognitive difficulties, I think maybe even disassociation. You could even call it a mental breakdown and burnout (from OCD itself). Even went to a neurologist 'cause I think thought there was brain damage or some sht. I'm STILL recovery from that. I feel worse cognitively, and even think it that episode pushed me into some type of clinical depression. So isn't that lovely that "not dealing with the OCD / not doing the compulsion" is actually a shtty choice (for me) as well.
Has anyone else struggled with compulsions around using ERP itself? It creeped in subtly, but I’ve noticed myself now starting to repeat phrases/mantras before I try to do exposures. Ironically, that itself has become a compulsion. It’s wild, how do you get a compulsion about not doing compulsions 🤯 It honestly probably got this way and doesn’t help that I haven’t been able to access therapy in over 3 yrs. So as I’ve tried to use ERP on my own without professional support, it just kind of morphed into this. Well I should be able to access services again in January. I suppose it’s not that far away anymore at this point, 4 months. Grateful for that at least.
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