Advice from Christians

I couldnt celebrate this Christmas fully, i wanted to really be thankful that Jesus came to this world to save us, yet i found myself questioning what was the purpose of that, cause i didnt know why, i started questioning whats the reason of all of this, why God made us if He knew that we will betray Him, why we have to suffer because of Adam and i felt angry because its unfair. I still didnt found the answer to this yet now i realized what can be behind this. Maybe its not that and after i deal with this feeling that its not fair we are here cause of Adam and Eve will still be here. But i know the problem is that i feel shame that its the part of me that i can betray God. That its in me to think that i can be better than God. We christians just normally say that we are sinful creatures and bad people but this just makes me have a really bad relationship with myself. When i try to understand something i always feel like im trying to be in Gods place, like im trying to be like Him. And this "we are bad and sinful" just makes me feel bad and i want to say its not true but thats the truth. And yeah Jesus died for us but that still makes me feel bad that im sinful, and then im angry cause i didnt choose this, noone did, i didnt choose to eat that fruit from the three... its just makes me feel that its unfair. I dont really understand the story of Adam and Eve.

Religion & Spirituality OCD

PRIV8

Date posted: 1y

I think ocd plays a big role in this cause when i try to accept that im sinful, it makes me feel really shameful, guilt, and then i feel the same about my ocd thoughts cause then i think because im sinful it means that the thoughts is me. The bible say we are bad so that must mean the thoughts are there cause im a bad person. Which is not true but i really lost the path with this. I feel bad if i deny my sinfulness cause who am i to say that but if i do it makes me feel bad

wfdnash

Date posted: 1y

Adam and Eve is an allegory in my opinion. It’s a story to explain good and evil in the world. Personally I don’t take all of the Bible literally. The part I take literally is that Jesus came to show us how to love and to save us all from ourselves. He told us to live our neighbors “as ourselves “ which means we should live ourselves. I think “religion” has caused a lot If harm to people especially people with ocd. All of the rules mess with our heads. Just remember that Jesus loves you the way you are and wants you to show love to others. The rest is unimportant. Of course this is just my opinion. I’m 62 and have lived with this my whole life so this is coming from experience!

PRIV8

Date posted: 1y

Im not saying youre wrong saying that, i do understand why you see it like that. I find myself feel angry towards "christian" people more than non believers, my brother plays in a christian band and i help them in the backstage and through this year i was lucky to experience how "supportive" christian people are. I put supportive in quotation mark cause im being sarcastic. If someone thinks that if you become a christian and your battle will be only against non believers than those arent right... sometimes i find that some christians are the most toxic people on the world, even on christian community they talk badly about how other christians preach God badly, what they do is bad the only right way is what they do... i experienced this on alot of concerts, when we should be happy someone came from far away to play music to us and God, we are judging eachother how thats not "real preaching" "its a concert, you do it for yourself" and all the nonsense... i want to be a christian musician too and i know now that my biggest fights will not be with non believers but with the so called christians... Anyway the bible and God its not wrong for this, yes we dont need to take anything literally but at the same time we have to take it seriously. But it matters how you read the bible and i think we need years till we actually understand it. Sadly religion distordet it for us... but i have faith that we can work on that cause eitherway we wouldnt be here...

Krome_da

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 22w

Pretty Tough Morning

So I’m not sure how many/if any of you are Christians, but I’m assuming this can still make sense to some of you. This morning has been rough. I’m constantly thinking, “am I saved? Have I never been saved and I’m tricking myself into thinking I am? When I’m listening to Christian music am I doing for the right reasons? Is it too late for me?”. Things I know the truthful answers to but yet I still think these thoughts. I don’t understand why. Why do I constantly think about these “what if”’s? My heart always feels so heavy and I feel as if I need to talk to God right then and there to make it stop and go away. But then am I talking to the Lord for the wrong reasons? And the cycle repeats. Thankfully, day one of my therapy is tonight and I’m hoping to find at least a little clarity on this stuff. I’ve had OCD for 7 years and I don’t even know how it works. Any advice?

Mike6060

Date posted: 16w

Bible and Christ

Is it possible to follow Christ without actually believing? I want God but don't always trust and especially with Jesus/Christianity. I want to believe and I don't but I am still drawn in; it is comforting and compelling. I like what Jesus represented, I like the teachings (although don't always seem practical and seemingly so hard to live up to), and I LOVE Christian music. I love the community. It is so hard to embrace it really and it although gives me comfort brings on a lot of anxiety and confusion. I feel like I have no control to function when I am supposed to let myself be led; I don't even know what that means when I have to think and move my body to live. I want to have a strong faith in God in general without feeling condemned. I want to feel there is a God holding on to me so I don't feel so alone, restless, and lost. Who better to love than your creator? Who better to put your trust in to help you in times of despair. I cant help to think that the Bible is a myth and although if Jesus did exist was only a prophet. My conditioning and impulses are constantly rejecting it and so many times I opened myself up only to quit the next day because it doesn't stick. I am constantly met with rejecting thoughts and fear. It's not sustainable. At the same time, I love him and his story well I only read a little of the Bible and intended to sermons, etc. Another thing, how do I know what is the truth when I am getting interpretations of the Bible when reading, listening to others interpretations through pastoral sermons and other people voicing their opinion?

Jacklyngrant

Date posted: 13w

questioning why God would allow this

Hi friends. I recently had a relapse with OCD and I haven’t felt that real intense pain/fear/panic since I was first diagnosed 3 years ago. It was awful. I’ve been on medication and going to therapy for some time, and I am happy to report I have grown a lot. Long story short, it’s just become a burden for me recently trying to understand why this had to happen to me (and all of you). When I first started following Jesus, it was such a spiritual high. I had so much peace and joy, and I think within that first year with Him I became obsessed with the Bible and learning as much as I could. I think it was a sweet time, but suddenly a switch flipped. I became concerned that all my head knowledge, though I took to heart, became all I cared about. Then all the intrusive thoughts started, and you know the rest. I was relieved when I got my diagnosis, to know that scrupulosity is even a thing. But today, I sit and realize my OCD has taken on other forms (existential/fear of going insane) and then of course I started asking God “why me?”. And then… of course.. I feel bad for asking that. And then it triggered that same old feeling that I’m not in right standing with God. It’s so meta I can’t take it. Does anyone wonder why this had to be? I know the typical answers “we live in a broken world” and “God will use this for His glory” but is anyone just able to sit in that frustration, and work it out? I want to keep fighting, try understanding, like there’s this itch in me that I need to “figure out” something. But I know God isn’t the voice that’s speaking that to me. But gosh, it’s so brutal and hard. I believe God is carrying me through this. 2 Corinthians 12 has been a blessing for this. I just feel so weak. I get upset this is happening, start doubting God, and then feel guilty. It’s a stupid cycle and I see it. I have a very intellectual mind, and I find that most people with this kind of OCD share this trait. But it’s like, the logic doesn’t help. I just want God to sit in my bedroom and tell me it’s real, my faith is intact, and to keep trusting. I don’t know why He won’t do that for me, and I feel guilty for even feeling that way. Anyways, I don’t know what I’m seeking here, but for anyone feeling this way, know you’re not alone. I deeply love you all, even though we are all strangers. 1 Peter 5:9… right?

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