- Username
- anna__
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 52w ago
Is Scrupulosity/Religious OCD limited to fears of salvation?
I used to struggle with salvation OCD. While I haven't dealt with that in several years, I do struggle with other fears that may be OCD related? Mostly they have to do with vocation and wondering if I'm sinning by living in a nice house and working a regular job and not in a 3rd world country somewhere as a missionary. I recently decided to apply to graduate school but worry that it's sinful and selfish because I won't be serving other people or ministering in that capacity. I also have fears of God calling me to go somewhere I don't want to go....for instance, the other day I had a sudden and urgent feeling that God wanted me to move to LA to minister....I haven't stopped thinking about it and am terrified that He might ask me to move there. I don't want to at all. But then I feel ashamed and guilty for being unwilling. Could that be a form of religious OCD? Whenever I try to research Scrupulosity all I get are results relating to salvation OCD. I don't struggle with that so much anymore. But I do often wonder if these present fears are a subtype of the subtype. Does anybody else experience this? And what exposures are helpful?