for the last few nights i havent been able to fall asleep easily cause i had this like tired but wired feeling. and i was googling ways to calm myself to sleep and something said it could be an early sign of psychosis. and now its got me all freaked out because my ocd is harm related so im scared it is psychosis and im gonna do something thats in my thoughts. anyone relate??
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Google is a bad bad place lol. It gives you way more than you ask for sometimes. You also really gotta look at the source. A lot of times they’re bogus. Googling is one of my BIG compulsions. As soon as I vowed to stop googling I started feeling better. Then Que today and I was feeling some anxiety and immediately I took to Google. And welp I can feel the OCD loop trying to get stronger. So I stopped. Sitting with the feelings and telling myself this is just anxiety. Anxiety is ok, and it’s not a problem for me to solve.
@JessieB yeah i feel you. googling is one of my biggest compulsions AND one of my biggest triggers.
@kodyisland So instead of googling I started writing journals each day in my phone. I will write how I feel throughout the day. I will rate my anxiety 0-10. And I will not down any feelings or thoughts I have. Bc no matter how many times we google it’s not gonna give us the answer we want or need. Give it a shot. And if you’re in therapy you can show your therapist your entries.
@kodyisland We have the same subtypes except the POCD. So I can relate very well. I’m also worried coming to this community board is becoming a compulsion bc I’m constantly searching on here too. So I’ve tried to quit that as well.
@JessieB i think my biggest issue rn is not being able to fall asleep. but it’s not like my thoughts are intrusive or anything when i’m going to sleep. it’s more like i’m cycling through millions of them super fast yk?
@JessieB like one thing i’m worried about now is that my racing thoughts either mean i’m bipolar or like google said it’s psychosis
@kodyisland Try out some deep sleep meditations on YouTube. Put head phones on it works better. They really calm you down. Focus on listening to their voices. And yes I totally get the mind cycling. It’s so annoying. That’s also a compulsion. Constantly going over and over and over. I haven’t got into the ERP part of therapy yet, so I’m ready to get that underway.
@kodyisland I’ve also had that as well. I’m a nurse so sometimes I know wayyyy too much and it’s not good for us OCD folks. Do you have a therapist?
@JessieB it’s weird cause my thoughts aren’t even anxious ones. they’re just normal thoughts ?
@JessieB yeah i just started with a nocd therapist
@kodyisland Perfect! I did too! So they will evaluate you and let you know if you have any of those disorders. But I do see you have health OCD. Which quite often will try to convince us OCD folks something is wrong when it’s really not. I too have googled do I have schizophrenia, psychosis, mania, blah blah blah. But in reality I don’t it’s just the OcD. But even after knowing I don’t have that it’s like my brain is still like what if. And that’s where we gotta learn to just look at it as a thought and nothing more. We will learn that in therapy,
@JessieB yeah. i guess im just trying to get to the bottom of the racing thoughts. cause i could be trying to sleep and then its like song lyrics, and then a different song, and then imagining something. or like there might not even be thoughts it just feels like i have energy built up. have you ever experienced that?
@kodyisland I have felt the energy built up feeling with no thoughts. And that makes my brain automatically think it’s related to my suicide OCD. Most the time I don’t have a descriptive thoughts. It just took the one time “what if you killed yourself” and sent me over the edge terrified. I think that energy built up feeling is anxiety.
@JessieB as a nurse, do you think exercise or something may help with that built up energy feeling?
@kodyisland Yes! Exercise is great for boosting serotonin and excess energy.
@JessieB do you think yoga would be good enough or should i got for a higher intensity exercise?
@kodyisland You could try yoga. I’ve heard great things about yoga. I don’t exercise (I should lol) so I would start with Yoga and then move up.
@JessieB one more question. so obviously i’ve been googling a lot now. last night i think i might’ve been falling asleep and partially dreaming and heard someone speak but like in the dream but i also wasn’t fully asleep so it also kinda sounded real. and now im worried that’s psychosis
@kodyisland I’ve had this several times. And I’ve googled it. I like hear someone shout my name. It’s apparently normal as you’re falling asleep or waking. https://youtu.be/QeY0L1-J8A0?si=1bpk35II68on1Wdy
I like this YouTube video for relaxing https://youtu.be/cX47UAy4rmc?si=yXxEtHLoeb-BNHRz
@JessieB Do try out that meditation video! Let me know whatcha got think
And I learned so much about OCD from Matt Codde- https://youtube.com/@restoredminds?si=jpEXdzdF_1BXKMss
Wanna make a pack with me? Let’s stay off Google for the rest of the day. You do it. I’ll do it too
@JessieB deal. we stay off google for the rest of the day no matter how much we want to look something up 🤝
@kodyisland 🤝deal! Let’s let our minds rest.
@JessieB and thanks for your insight!
@kodyisland Absolutely! Always here if ya wanna chat!
@JessieB have you ever had thoughts that kind of sound like plans?
@kodyisland No mine aren’t really descriptive. But from what I’ve read Suic OCD will present itself in many different ways. How is the no researching going?
@JessieB i don’t think i’ve googled anything since we talked about it. hbu?
@kodyisland Excellent! Nope! I haven’t either! And guess what! Thoughts and anxiety is much quieter!
@JessieB mine is coming and going but using non engagement responses is helping some too
@JessieB a little update: i fell asleep much quicker last night! did some reading and then light meditation. fought the urge to google at one point because i felt like i saw shadows which again ik could be normal or a psychosis thing and got nervous (you ever have that?). how’d the rest of your day go?
@kodyisland Mornin! Stayed off of Google. I did wake up with a lot of anxiety this morning. And I’m fighting the urge to Google and read this NOCD community board. Nope haven’t had that. Just a constant worry about this stupid suicide OCD. I’m about to head into my angry Era bc I was doing well with the anxiety and now it wants to rear its ugly head. So I’m gonna have to get stern with it I guess lol.
@kodyisland How we doing? Staying off the Google monster?
@JessieB trying to! i had a rough night last night but didn’t google just couldn’t sleep. hbu
@kodyisland Trying hard to avoid Google and this app lol. So far doing better from the increased anxiety the past few days.
@JessieB that’s good! yeah i haven’t gotten to avoiding this app so much…
Recently ive had ocd thoughts that are really weird and make no sense (they sound like thoughts that someone would have if they were in physcosis eg. What if trump can communicate with you through your head) like what??? Sometimes it feels like i believe it??? Which stresses me out and im constantly worried that im going through physcosis since i sort of belive it? I know deep down its ridiculous but it almost feels like i believe it?? Im scared. Like sometimes im calm with the thought. Im like oh okay maybe. Then sometimes my brain tries to imagine him like talking to me through my head??? Am i going through physcosis.??
so this all started not too long ago, for literally no reason at all. but one day i got a random intrusive thought about harming others and it freaked me out bad. since then i’ve been non stop focusing on it and im genuinely scared that i am, or gonna end up like those sick people that have documentaries about them. i’ve never had these types of thoughts before and after me and my mom looked a lot of stuff up we think i have OCD cuz a lot of the stuff it was saying was accurate to me. to anyone in here, does this sound like OCD to you? i’ve always been a nice loving person and these thoughts freak me out so bad and make me feel like i’m a bad gross person. it got to the point i don’t even like looking at myself anymore. i just wanna go back to normal man. another thing to add, when i would explain this to my mom even though i was telling the full truth on how crappy this made me feel it felt like i was lying almost? but i know i wasn’t deep down. i’m just scared that what if i act on something or get in my head too much you know?
I’ve never been diagnosed with OCD, but I relate so much to what people here are going through. I used to think it was just anxiety, and I felt like I could handle that. But lately I’ve been spiraling—constantly afraid that what I’m feeling is something worse, like psychosis or losing control of my mind. I feel so detached and scared, and I just want peace again. I have anxiety doing the smallest things, like the thought of waking up everyday and even eating give me straight up panic. I am afraid all the time, it’s paralyzing. And a lot of people say someone with psychosis wouldn’t worry that they’re in it, but then I convince myself I’ve been in it this whole time, and haven’t known, and that maybe I’ve been doing weird stuff. Idk. I also get really scared of labels. Even the idea of OCD makes me feel like I’ll never get better or like I’ll be stuck like this forever. I just want to be okay. If anyone has felt this way—confused, overwhelmed, or scared of what’s happening in their mind—I’d really appreciate any support or encouragement.
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