I don’t love her ... I do .... I don’t want want to be with her ... I do ... I will never be happy if I stay .... well I was happy before ... just leave u can do better ..... no she is amazing... she doesn’t deserve to be with someone who thinks the thought u do ... I know but I can’t help it .... so leave ... no I don’t want to I love my life with her ... well it it will only end in tears like ur last 1 u said u loved her and she loved u couldn’t have loved u that much to piss off with ur mate and leave u with kids .so who’s to say she won’t do it as wel ... she isn’t like that yea u to bought that last time so just leave it not right for each other anyway ... yes we are .... and so on and so on .... rocd or whatever this horrible twat is 3 months and counting please just stop ???

Gavsherry I ended up cancelling my wedding last year because of ROCD. It did not help the anxiety; in fact, it kind of make it worse. You know what did help the ROCD? We got married a month ago and it’s wonderful. Maybe I made the wrong decision, but I made a choice and that’s enough for each day. Don’t let your fear and indecision try to live your life for you. You can choose what it is that you want. Sometimes you will make the wrong choice, and that’s ok too.

Sorry you’re Going through this. I’ve had it on and off for 20 years. I still got married and had a child and I’m very very happy but it sneaks up on what we care about / fear most

Yes it is, follow your gut / heart don’t let fear make your decisions for you!

I know the feeling. Check out Sheryl Paul’s work. She does a lot with relationship anxiety and it was helpful for me.

It’s awful isn’t t were due to eat married next year and I get all excited when I think about it and then I’ll get a sinking feeling of guilt and stuff that I’m lying to myself etc so confusing and I’ll get spiked to the max if I find someone Else attractive like I’ve cheated something I’d never ever do thanks for the reply it’s a little comforting knowing I’m not alone with it although I’d rather e Han others to suffer like this it’s hell In the mind at times

Puppychino thank u so much for that I don’t want to be without her I just want us to be happy etc I know nothing is guaranteed in life but I know what we have is fantastic I just feel I’m losing my grip on it and I can’t take my finger of the self destruct button if that makes sense thanks again for the reply I won’t give up just wish the anxiety/thoughts/negative feelings would piss off excuse my language

Thanks will check it out.