- Username
- rachelraema
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Welcome lovely. The more you test is reassurance and so bad for your ocd my lovely. You will just be fuelling this horrible b*stard. OCD will just latch onto your insecurities. It is such a debilitating disorder and very hard for others to understand but we all do here. Sit with the anxiety no matter how strong it is......let your heartbeat go right up, let your body shake and let your breath go fast but try to not give in to the testing. It will eventually ease. Xx
One thing that helped me was realizing that OCD attacks your values and creates thoughts that are the inverse of how you live your life. From your themes we know that you greatly value and respect your husband and your relationship. You also have fear of harming him involuntarily (emotionally and physically).
How are you going with this rachelraema? Have you managed to resist the compulsion in the last 10 days since your post?
Omg someone else with the same exact obsession as me!!! I have been feeling so fucking alone for four months I am starting to feel so depressed now I started getting obsessed when I had a symptom I googled and I spiralled. I’ve had repeated tests and always find a fault with it “what if I had the wrong results? What if they mixed them up? What if they aren’t accurate? What if I didn’t test at the right time?” My newest obsession is my eye. I had conjunctivitis and now a what the optician said is a chalazion and definitely not std related. My mind tells me “how can you be sure? They haven’t swabbed it...” I’m convinced I will lose my partner as a result of having STDs I didn’t know about and he will leave me. It’s actually ruining me
After being sexually assaulted I developed a fear of sex and as a protection my OCD became obsessed with STDs and I’ve been tested a million times for everything they will test me for (they strongly recommended against testing me for herpes because everyone has it in some form and if you’re not showing symptoms and using protection it is near impossible to pass on so it doesn’t matter until you want to settle down and there is a big stigma) I’ve always come back clean, even for the random shit I googled like mycoplasma that I begged to be to be tested for. I still freak out. And now since I am starting to believe I am ok I don’t want to have sex with someone else Incase they infect me (even though if we use condoms and they get the routine test for HIV, Hep, Syphillis, Gonnorhea , and Chlymidia) the odds are slim. What do I do!!! And I agonize over whether I should disclose I have HPV even though my gyno says no because everyone has it (literally the CDC says that) and it goes away on its own almost always and dude to the lack of education it would do more harm than good. I think I am just finding reasons to avoid intimacy at this point and my OCD is making me intensely fearful about my sexual health in a very painful way to distract me, and I can’t deal. I’d rather just confront my issues.
Hi I’m new to this app. Just wondering if anyone has the OCD type I have. I get very anxious after I go out and have drinks (when I go out I party) and my mind tells me I do things I know I didn’t do, But keeps tricking me telling me it might have happened and I get so scared because they are so awful. I’m having a terrible couple days now, fighting with myself, just loaded with fear. I haven’t had this in years and it just came back so strong. I feel lost.
So I’ve been doing so well lately. One of my biggest OCD themes besides harm is related to health and particularly STD’s within that. I’ve always had a fear of the STD’s that are incurable...particularly herpes though it’s effect on someone’s life is minimal. I’ve been sexually active recently (always with protection) and have noticed a spot on my penis. It very well could be acne or dermatitis of some kind but my OCD has already convinced me that it’s herpes and that I need to immediately get tested (which both my therapist and primary doctor have said would be feeding into the OCD unless it’s blatantly obvious that I need medical attention.) So I’m not sure what to do, any ideas how to cope with this anxiety, has anyone else had this form of OCD? Thank you in advance....
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