I feel horrible. Someone Please help. I can’t stop crying. I’m just so tired of this. I’ll watch videos of kids sometimes on tik tok or reels and every once in a while i’ll get a weird unexplainable feeling. It’s like a dark feeling but for some reason it feels sexual. It makes me feel sick trying to figure out what it means. I know I don’t want to touch kids but then my brain is like well explain this feeling.
Hey. Just want to let you know this doesn’t define who you are. I have this problem too. I understand why it’s distressing.
@Ishil it’s the worst:(
@Ishil do u have snap. i’m also in college
@userrrr Snapchat?
@Ishil yes
@userrrr Yes I have Snapchat. Do you want to add?
@Ishil yess only if ur cool w it. its nice to know people w ocd like mine
@userrrr Oh of course you can add me! Just asking if you wanted to. I’ll add you back :) my username is ishyfishy_3
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I know exactly how you feel i have struggled with something very similar. you are not alone.
@m4dd1333 you have? thank you
@userrrr yes it has consumed my life and i still struggle with it to this day. with medication it’s gotten a bit easier to know that it does not define me. :)
@invaderzim hey sorry i’m really struggling with this right now. you said you relate. could we talk?
@userrrr of course let me know how i can help
@invaderzim well i basically am obsessing over the feeling. idk how to explain it. but sometimes if i see a kid uncomfy i get a weird feeling i cannot explain. feels like anxiety/adrenaline. but somehow it can seem sexual. i’ll be totally fine and then i’ll see a video and get the feeling and flip out
@userrrr ok the biggest thing that has helped me get over this is knowing that feelings such as you are describing CAN BE INTRUSIVE!! sorry if that seems aggressive but it is true your mind will start sensing a pattern when you see something that makes you feel anxious/ worried you are “attracted” to and you can start having intrusive “arousal” type feelings. BUT ITS NOT YOU! A person who has these feelings and likes them WOULD NOT CARE IF ITS WRONG!! False attraction is a thing i promise!! Medicine has really helped me with this i recommend if at all possible to talk to a psychiatrist to help this! I promise you are not alone i have been exactly where you are and have made it through. The more you try to push away these feelings the stronger they can become you have to learn to sit with that discomfort in order to break the cycle. I recommend an instagram account @pureochrissie she has many posts on this part of OCD that really helped me.
@invaderzim thank you. have you had the same feeling i described and the same scenario?
@userrrr yes i have many times and it would send me into a spiral of rumination and confession that never helped!
@invaderzim really? you’ve gotten the feeling specifically after seeing videos of kids uncomfortable
@invaderzim ?
@userrrr yes, but reassurance will not help you im sorry. You will have to learn to sit with the uncertainty to break the OCD cycle. this is NOT you!!!
@invaderzim it’s just hard to trust that it’s ocd bc little people talk ab that feeling
@invaderzim do u have snap?
@userrrr yes i just need a minute to reinstall it
@userrrr i 100% understand its very difficult.
@invaderzim ok perfect can i add u it’s so hard sometimes
@userrrr maddie_p2922 yes heres my snap username
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I have been suffering this for about 3 weeks now and its absolutely unbearable, I want to state more explicit details about this but I dont want to distress others, all I can say is I am experiencing this weird feeling in my groin and an urge to masturbate and its horrifying me. I already am diagnosed with anxiety but it pales in comparison with what is happening with me. I had no interest in children at all before this but now I am experiencing doubt and uncertainty. I have already cried 5 times today, this is the most awful thing I have ever experienced. I am only 20 years old and its both physically, and emotionally destroying me
Ive dealt with pocd for a very long time now and it gets more real as time goes on. I was watching a movie and I’ve read the books so I knew there was a kiss scene coming up.The actors and their characters are children but I was basically looking forward to the scene. Then as they were kissing, it looked kind of weird and mechanical because again the actor was technically still a child. And I let myself indulge and enjoy it, of how someone young was doing something sexual and adult like. Idk I feel like a fuckikg creep but I don’t WANT this. There was nothing intrusive about this, it’s just something creepy that I’ve done. I keep ruminating about it but still. I don’t identify myself by this mistake but it still sucks. My mind then went to children that I know, one girl and one boy, and them separately doing sexual things for the first time and navigating that and it feels like I like it but I don’t. It’s not as real as the movie scene because the fact I enjoyed the scene WAS real but it’s still stressing me out.
TW Just saw a judge video where a girl was complaining about a mom suing her for money when her mom is her agent and gives her younger sister (at 17 years old) better work because they exploit her body and THEY SHOWED PICTURES. I saw it and was like “oh my gosh is that actually what I think it is?” Then after realizing it’s like I was too shocked to look away. What is bothersome is that I wasn’t immediately repulsed enough to turn it off and didn’t immediately do so and when the picture kept showing up it’s like I kept looking at it to make sure what I saw was actually what I saw. Also, the false memory is hitting hard because now I’m wondering if I had intrusive thoughts judging her body. Now I feel like a perv and pedo 😭 It’s like I’m anxious over not being anxious enough about the situation while actually being incredibly anxious. I don’t if that made ANY sense but someone please help. I will say my mind was already incredibly vulnerable because of burnout and other very stressful events recently. Still, I feel terrible and feel I deserve to be in jail.
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