Back at university

The first semester of my first year at university was horrible. My ocd was the worst it has ever been. I was anxious and depressed all of the time. It was a huge adjustment for me. I feel like people talk of university as the best years of their life and the fact that I was not having a good time stressed me out. That and also the class work and finding friends etc. slowly I got back on track and I had a really good Christmas break. I really needed it and I got put on some medication. But now I am back at school. It is my first day here and I am kind of excited, it’s like I get to start over. But I am super anxious too. I don’t want my mental health to get that bad again. I am really scared. And I think I have unrealistic expectations for this semester as well. What if not reaching them causes me to hit Rick bottom again.

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Date posted: 1y

The more pressure you put on yourself to be perfect and live up to these expectations the harder it will be to enjoy right now. Just take it day by day, enjoy being yourself, and let things unfold naturally. Just keep an eye on deadlines and take notes on what assessments might need more time and allocate accordingly, make kind and realistic promises to yourself and try to meet your promises rather than these ridiculously high expectations we all put on ourselves. You’re not going to miss out, even if you have ups and downs, just focus on enjoying yourself when you can. Hope this helps. Wish u the best, and hope you have a fun semester

Littlemisshiss

Date posted: 1y

Oh girl I can related. While I may not be in university one of my biggest fears too is not wanting my mental health to go back to that place. I’ve been struggling with severe depression the last few months and have made a lot of progress over the holiday season. My mom came to visit and help me get reset, I just dropped her off at the airport this morning. I’m so scared I won’t hold myself accountable and I’ll slip back into that really isolating dark mental space. I love the previous comment. Building off of that, we need to let go of expectations and allow ourselves to just exist day to day and do what feels right. I’m a big fan of ‘what is, is. And what isn’t, isn’t.’ It helps me stay grounded and realize to just take in the reality of each moment and not create it into something in my head that just isn’t the truth. Also I saw this, Feeling Excited And Ready Which is a little corny but helps me recognize fear is just another emotion and is not any more powerful and the others. Feeling scared means we are moving in the right direction. I hope you have a GREAT day today and the semester you are looking for. Remember life isn’t a movie but you can make each day whatever you want. Each day is a new beginning, we are not our past 🌈✨🫶🏼

r.m.1

Date posted: 1y

Relax, enjoy the ride. I hated college so much initially (went home every weekend because I was so lonely? but over time, familiarity and friends came and it got much better. You’re not alone!

moomoo22

Date posted: 23w

pls reply if you have help

i am a freshman in college and i have always struggled with depression, anxiety, and OCD. i have never received help for my OCD despite being medicated for my other two issues. i have noticed that what most of my panic stems from is my OCD and more specifically my OCD around school. i haven’t been able to get myself up for class for multiple days and im starting to panic about everything im missing and think about every little thing i have to fix. i am so behind that it makes me want to panic and i feel like i cant fix this. i just want my mind to feel normal but it feels like my whole world is falling apart all because i am feeling stuck in school. please help me i just want to feel okay but i dont know how to. i have tried doing all the assignments i can do to catch up but it isn’t enough i still feel so panicked

Disko

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 23w

Struggling in a new job healthcare

It’s been a really long time since I’ve been here. I’m about to go back to school for nursing. But right now I’m working as a nursing assistant in the hospital. Idk if it’s my body adjusting to seeing new INTENSE things every day or shoving so much information into me at once with long 12 hour shifts. And when I’m at work and conscious it’s completely fine. But when I come home and sleep I wake up from bad dreams. Yesterday at work there were maybe 10 rapids (when you call an emergency for your patient, don’t always have a good ending) and I woke up this morning remembering my dream that I was in the hospital and my heart stopped and they had to call a rapid on me. Maybe it’s not even OCD??? And it’s just heavy heavy stuff that I’ve never seen before and it’s just my brain and body adjusting to life and things that can be really scary. It just feels a bit like when my OCD was bad and I’m scared I’m really in my head right now I don’t want it to get worse. Can anyone relate???

winterdays

Date posted: 23w

A really crappy year.

Sorry for the long post but I really need to vent. It’s really not a good period. It hasn’t been for a year now. There have been highs and lows, but the truth is I never addressed my problems, never tried to solve them but just pretended they weren’t there. I reached my lowest point this time last year, my OCD had never been worse, I was extremely burnt-out and couldn’t study anymore. And since then, I haven’t been able to study. Everytime I try I get a panic attack. OCD gets better then it gets worse. I probably have ADHD as well, and my parents probably still believe I’m making it all up. They tell me to “try harder” but I really, really can’t, and I’ve tried. And let’s add to all this all the people who have broken my heart, both exes and friends; and they just go on with their lives like they didn’t break me. I also had to quit my job (where they treated me like crap) and had to listen to them tell me that I’m an egoistic person and other awful things I will not say. Yeah, this last year has been the worst. I have come to the point where I can’t pretend anymore. I can’t pretend everything is fine. I’ve come to the point where I can’t leave the house without having panic attacks and fearing I’m going to die. This Monday I have my first appointment with a therapist. I’m a pessimist person usually but this time I feel hopeful. Maybe because I think it can’t get worse than this.

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