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You’re not alone, as I imagine you know from reading, many of us struggle with these thoughts and worries. I too have no desire to touch minors, and yet my brain spends so much time trying to tell me otherwise, giving me intrusive sexual thoughts, and any other nonsense knowing I hate it. When these thoughts first showed up I thought it would be inevitable that I would kill myself after a few months of it, but I went to therapy and here I still am. It’s still hard but it’s a lot better. I don’t know what your life is like, but considering the nature of this topic I highly recommend discussing this with a professional if you can. Dreams can be especially difficult 😭, something I like to consider is a nightmare where you die, or something like that if you’ve never had that before, when you wake up you’re alive (or that thing hasn’t really happened). it’s the same thing with this dream, you’ve done nothing wrong, just let it be

I’ve had dreams that go against my values too, like I do something or have intentions of doing something and make me very distressed when I wake up and it ruins my day. Makes me super anxious. We just have to remember that those thoughts/dreams are meaningless and are not facts. ♥️

Now I’m having intrusive sexual thoughts I don’t want to touch a baby I know these thoughts are bullshit but it feels like I’m not worried enough, I see some people say they almost throw up from thoughts like this. I don’t want to imagine these things I don’t understand why this is happening.