Dream

I just woke up from a dream where I was helping with someone’s baby, and I was excited to help them change their diaper. I don’t think I had evil intentions in the dream because I didn’t think anything creepy, but it makes me feel weird that I was excited. I think I was just excited to help with the baby but I also in the dream was nervous because I didn’t want to look at their privates. My mom was with me and I was asking her questions about what to do, so it makes me feel better she was with me like I really didn’t have evil intentions. But it still makes me feel uncomfortable and I woke up before actually going near their diaper. I feel anxious and my heart is racing because I feel like I wasn’t in a deep sleep and like I was fantasizing. I in real like have zero desire to go near a baby and I know I would be too afraid to help change a diaper. But also now I keep having images of them without the diaper in my head and it feels like I’m fantasizing. I don’t care about a child’s privates, it’s none of my business. I think the only reason I had this dream is because I worry with intrusive thoughts about harming children a lot in the day. But I’ve been up a lot of the night and again makes me worried that I wasn’t all the way asleep and was enjoying it. People have told me not to pay attention to dreams but it’s just hard not to.

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Username: DSXDSX

Date posted: 49w ago

You’re not alone, as I imagine you know from reading, many of us struggle with these thoughts and worries. I too have no desire to touch minors, and yet my brain spends so much time trying to tell me otherwise, giving me intrusive sexual thoughts, and any other nonsense knowing I hate it. When these thoughts first showed up I thought it would be inevitable that I would kill myself after a few months of it, but I went to therapy and here I still am. It’s still hard but it’s a lot better. I don’t know what your life is like, but considering the nature of this topic I highly recommend discussing this with a professional if you can. Dreams can be especially difficult 😭, something I like to consider is a nightmare where you die, or something like that if you’ve never had that before, when you wake up you’re alive (or that thing hasn’t really happened). it’s the same thing with this dream, you’ve done nothing wrong, just let it be

Username: bloominglotusbloominglotus

Date posted: 49w ago

@Anonymous Thank you for taking the time to write this and share your experience, this made me feel a lot better. I’m so glad to hear you’re doing well after therapy. I definitely want to see a professional when I can, and I guess that’s one thing that makes me feel better is I know that I want some help, no matter what my mind says. It’s not enjoyable to live life this way and I don’t want this. Yes the dreams have been awful, I’ve been dealing with so many distressing dreams for a while now. And I know it’s because of my worrying during the day, but it’s so upsetting sometimes. I try to let it go but sometimes it just gets to me. But that’s a good point, what you said about a nightmare where you die but wake up fine. That makes me feel a lot better to think about it that way, nobody got hurt. Thank you so much.

Username: jeanette jeanette

Date posted: 49w ago

I’ve had dreams that go against my values too, like I do something or have intentions of doing something and make me very distressed when I wake up and it ruins my day. Makes me super anxious. We just have to remember that those thoughts/dreams are meaningless and are not facts. ♥️

Username: bloominglotusbloominglotus

Date posted: 49w ago

Now I’m having intrusive sexual thoughts I don’t want to touch a baby I know these thoughts are bullshit but it feels like I’m not worried enough, I see some people say they almost throw up from thoughts like this. I don’t want to imagine these things I don’t understand why this is happening.

Username: bloominglotusbloominglotus

Date posted: 49w ago

@bloominglotus I’m really worried that I find talking about this thrilling or something. I think I spend too much time on here looking at posts relating to my fear, and it’s made me worry I find it enjoyable. My brain keeps telling me I’m a proud voice that I’m the real thing. It’s so confusing, I know it’s not what I want but I feel so worried, this is the worst point in my life ever. I just want to be normal.

Username: Freemeofocd

Date posted: 4y ago

You guys I need to let this go! I’m driving myself crazy over a dream. I don’t know how to let it go. I had a sexual dream while I was holding my daughter. It was about normal things and then i felt like I was about to have a sleep orgasm and then I started to smell her and feel her(because I was smelling her and feeling her, she was laying on me) and had a vision of pulling her into me, and smelling her head-then I jolted awake. I did not have an orgasm, and I woke up and she was asleep. But Im having this fear that would if she was the reason I was turned on to begin with in the dream? Would if I didn’t wake up quick enough? Would if I did actually go to pull her into me, and it wasn’t just the dream? I’m so disturbed and I want to let it go!!!! I wanna let it go so badly. As soon as it happened I said okay it was a dream, don’t ruminate. And then I fucked up and came back to it a few hours later and started to ruminate and now I’m stuck in the rabbit hole. Would if it wasn’t a dream? Would if I had some level of consciousness and knew what I was doing? Would if I enjoyed it? I’m having such a hard time! I just wanna move on from it.

Username: Rain

Date posted: 1y ago

Help

So last night I had a dream that had a harm thought in it about hurting my cat and I had a reaction. Like you know how people sleep walk well I woke up to me swinging my arm over trying to grab her. I woke up and was like :0 and then went back to bed not really caring just was like that is an interesting thought. When I sung my arm over though she was walking past me. Now I’m convinced I was trying to act out my thought and I wanted it and that makes me so horrible. Has anyone had this?!?

Username: yessyess

Date posted: 1y ago

Dream felt too weird

I just woke up from a dream related to my OCD subtype and it felt too real and felt like I liked it and woke up panicking. I know dreams don’t mean anything but it felt too real and now I can’t sleep.

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