Does anyone think there POCD is real and your just in denial, I’ve had it for so long (5yrs) that it does not feel the same way when I first got it and kinda makes me feel like it’s real and I never had POCD.
I supposedly have it and I’ve been dealing with it for the past year. All of those negative emotions I see everyone else talking about I just don’t feel but it all still makes me extremely depressed. It feels more and more real the longer I deal with it. It’s so hard to just disregard something that just doesn’t go away.
@Jay222 Yeah it’s been almost impossible for me to just accept and not to fight but it’s like is this my truth and I’m just not accepting that it’s my reality and that kinda scares me actually it really scares me. I know what you mean though it feels really real the longer you have it and you become more numb by it every year you have it and you also don’t react the way you use to so now you have to think about maybe it was always my truth.
I thought I was the only one that thought it felt real. I mean with me it's like i really like the thoughts and am so confused on what's a real thought or not. I remember back a while anything related to the subject made me freak out. Honestly anything with any theme made me freak. But now nothing seems to make me psychically or mentally anxious and I question where all the emotions went. I really need therapy, cause I've done some really bad things and things I find very questionable, the bad part about that is there is always this voice in my head that says "you don't think its bad". So Honestly I'm so confused with everything that idk. Plus I'm pretty sure I've isolated my self i believe and yea. Sorry about the rant. I don't really have anyone to talk to these days
@spaceo What do you mean by questionable ? And do you feel concerned at all ?
@Fullmoon20 Well things that make me question who I am and other actions I've done that are weird to me but then my ocd says there not then it's the other way around. And what do you mean by concerned. Cause I've definitely felt concerned in the past but like I said it's like the emotion went away.
@spaceo Well yeah I’ve done things (nothing bad) and my OCD has lead me to believe that what I did was wrong or not wrong so I get what your saying and I mean if you feel bad it’s a big chance that it’s OCD.
@Fullmoon20 Probably these things have haunted me every day sense I've done them. And I need to get help no matter what my brain tells me. I don't want to hurt people anymore then I have in my opinion
@spaceo I get it, I don’t know what you did but I’m hoping you steer from it and you get better cause it’s an awful feeling and I’m sad that you have to go through I’m sad that anyone has to go through it. How old are you and how long have you had POCD.
@Fullmoon20 Well thanks for your support, but I'm 20 and have probably had it sense I was mid way through being 18
@spaceo That was not my first theme either that I atleast recognized
@spaceo Oh ok I’m 20 as well I was like you have to be kind of new but you’ve had it for a year and some change
@spaceo Ofc and that’s also the thing if you have had other themes that also tells you that your POCD could be OCD
@spaceo And remember OCD make you do strange questionable things but you always have a choice
@Fullmoon20 Yea, I do and I made some bad ones. The thing that bothers me the most is that exactly I'd that I had a choice. I don't even think it was anyone else's fault everything I've done is me and me alone. It's just the guilt that slowly eats me away.
@spaceo I’m sorry!!! That your feeling like this
@spaceo There’s a discord group for all types of odc and it’s judgement free do you wanna join it I can give you it and you can think about it
@Fullmoon20 Nah I've already screwed up on that discord. I'm telling you I'm not good
@spaceo It’s that bad??!!
@spaceo If you didn’t commit a crime I think you’ll be ok plus there’s a bunch of sources to talk to people that have OCD just like you and I.
@Fullmoon20 I didn't kill anybody on the discord or something crazy, I got weird like I do and I talk way to much and get attached and stuff. And then I don't respect boundaries. So I pissed off the mods and owner just cause I got issues with the things I said.
@spaceo Awwww I’m sorry I get weirdly attached to and people get annoyed with me a lot as well. Gotta work on the boundaries thing but other then that people need to be kinda if there gonna be making groups to help people out
@spaceo Have you tried any other groups at all
@Fullmoon20 No I don't really know any others. Plus idk if it's a good idea. I get pretty bad.
@spaceo Sorry if I’m replying to these really fast I like to help other people for some reason and I’m up early I have to go to work but would you want to talk to me? Do you think that would help?
@Fullmoon20 Maybe idk, I worry I'll just end doing the same things I always do. Plus I keep thinking about this thing I did a couple weeks ago that made makes me think I'm screwed in the head. I don't wanna make more people messed up by me
@spaceo Well I’m here to help not judge you I’m serious I never judge anyone as much as I judge myself if you need to talk to anyone you can talk to me.
@spaceo If you truly feel you have no one to talk to about your POCD.
@Fullmoon20 That sounds nice, I'm just unsure. I know I'll end up somehow make you upset or something. I've done it too many times.
@spaceo It’s up to you
@Fullmoon20 Your right, just make sure if I'm making you uncomfortable or anything just tell me. What way do you want to talk I only really have discord because I've deleted everything else
@spaceo Yeah I have discord
@Fullmoon20 Ok this is kinda stupid but my discord username is slappy0001. Lol
@spaceo Oh ok 😂
@spaceo I can’t find you
@spaceo Here’s mine mooneclipse0586
@Fullmoon20 Ok I have added you
@spaceo Ok I’ll look and txt you
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@bekind94 I was on meds it helped alittle but at one point it went away then it came back but I still don’t know if it’s OCD.
@bekind94 Very 🤦🏽♀️
I'm struggling with pocd it feels very real and I'm at a point where I feel I need to go to confess to the police stuff I know I haven't done but have false memories of doing and I feel like nobody thinks like this and very alone.
Is ocd supposed to feel like a genuine belief ? I see or hear some people saying things like « I know it’s not true but …. » while I personally don’t « know that it’s not true » I feels genuinely real and I even find evidence for it
I am 15 years old and my POCD feels like its not POCD, i feel like i like my intrusive thoughts, but i have more intrusive thoughts about having intrusive thoughts, and i feel like i cant enjoy the things i normally enjoy anymore, like calling with my girlfriend and joking with her because this is still in the back of my mind, its making me question morals and if i ever even viewed P as completely wrong and i hate this so much, i love my nieces and nephews and when they're over i know id never do anything with my intrusive thoughts but when they arent present i feel like i like my thoughts. Before this i was dealing with HOCD and ROCD and i wish i could go back to that
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