- Username
- noneuclidean
- Date posted
- 43w ago
Struggling with anxiety and rumination while on a family vacation.
Venting on vacation
I’m at Disney world with my family for ten days and I should be having a great time, but I’m just struggling almost every moment not to ruminate. I’m walking around parks talking to myself, trying to persuade myself not to ruminate. I’m standing in line ruminating. On rides. And I have no privacy to cry or clear my head because I’m sharing a room with my kids. I feel like I’m a problem. I’m constantly being triggered. Constantly anxious. I feel like such a burden to my family. Making us late for things because I’m hiding in the bathroom talking to myself. They must think I’m insane. I feel so broken and tired. I just want to be normal. I want to enjoy life. I don’t want to dread waking up. I want to be alone, but if I am alone I know I’m going to ruminate. I’m at lunch with my family and I’m trying not to cry.