I feel like a monster and i don't even feel guilty

I've been miserable for days. And the worst part is, I feel like I'm turning into the person I hate. I feel like I'm turning into a devil, a monster. Anything that used to make me feel bad and guilty doesn't make me feel bad anymore, and I feel like I enjoy those things but I'm hiding it. I feel like the people who act like they say they hate these things, but they don't actually hate them but support them. These things include cheating, unfaithfulness, perversion, using people for various reasons, and many other evil things. I feel like im pretending because i don't even feel guilty enough.. I feel like a demon.

Relationship OCD

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 52w ago

While reassurance is bad, you opened with “miserable” so it seems your feelings contradict your thoughts. Think about the thoughts that bother you on purpose with the intent to not react. It’s easy to react to an intrusive thought because it’s intrusive/unwanted. If we take away the intrusive part and think with intent, then it becomes easier to get comfortable which leads to less and less rumination

Username: walkingocdwalkingocd

Date posted: 52w ago

This method is never helpful on me

Username: AshleyAlumAshleyAlum

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 51w ago

Have you tried accepting your “lack of guilt” about these thoughts? Have you tried accepting that you have these thoughts without a feeling of guilt and that’s okay? I don’t fully understand how you’re saying you feel a lack of guilt but you also feel miserable and like a demon. What is the feeling that’s making you miserable?

Username: ash03etash03et

Date posted: 51w ago

Deep Down you know you care

Username: ash03etash03et

Date posted: 51w ago

Take a moment to breathe

Username: ash03etash03et

Date posted: 51w ago

Because I care too much

Username: ash03etash03et

Date posted: 51w ago

@ash03et Too*

Username: ash03etash03et

Date posted: 51w ago

Be kinder to yourself

Username: ofcourseOliviaofcourseOlivia

Date posted: 51w ago

hey, i'm really sorry to hear you're going through such a rough time, feeling disconnected from yourself and your values can be super unsettling. 😔 it's okay to have those tough feelings and it doesn't define who you truly are. remember, ocd can create all sorts of illusions that aren't a reflection of your character. by the way, have you heard about this new AI-powered OCD therapy tool called 'unstuck'? it became a game-changer for me when i felt overwhelmed by my own ocd battles. i think it'll be especially helpful for you because it provides that personalized support right when ocd starts making you doubt your identity, just like an ocd therapist would. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really think it can help you because it's changed my life. lmk if you have Qs or just want to talk more! <3

Username: Kumiakumia

Date posted: 20w ago

Feeling awful

I tell people my situation, they say it's nothing big or it's fine, I was a teenager. I still feel awful, magically thinking that the persons going to change their mind and expose me to the world that I'm an awful person even though they said I had no affect on them whatsoever. I feel guilty to admit I've shared it with numerous people, whether a little older or the same age, never younger because I feel uncomfortable talking to younger people. Still, everyone says I did nothing wrong and there's nothing to worry about, but I'm more concerned about the fact I feel like I truly did something horrible, I feel like what if someone's enabling my actions, even though they say they're being honest. I feel awful, and I know I have to sit with discomfort and all that bad stuff, but truly I feel disgusting. I've isolated myself for weeks, and I just don't want to hurt the other person, it's made me question my own intentions too. Does anyone else feel this way? I just feel like my mistakes are worse than anyone else on this app or in the world.

Username: Jesuslover28

Date posted: 16w ago

HELP

Does anyone else feel like they think these horrible things on there own or on purpose. I feel like I'm intentionally trying to hurt god and the holy Spirit now and idk what to do. I feel like I'm becoming my worst fear. Idk what to do I feel like I'm losing touch with myself and idk what to do. And I'm really worried God is going to turn his face from me or I'm going to do something I am going to regret. I'm not really sure whats happening to me, but I'm scared I'm going crazy.

Username: King silly

Date posted: 15w ago

I feel seriously done. I’m actually a bad person

Sometimes when I feel false attraction, I’ll say things out of disbelief and fear, for example, I see a kid that looks older and I feel sort attraction so I panic and say “I’m attracted” “I think he’s attractive” “he is/looks attractive” ,, “he’s attractive” ,, “he looks handsome” along those lines… I panic when I say these and my brain uses it against me… I genuinely feel like a bad person. I feel like I’m genuinely attracted now and that I’m a bad person and that I need to accept it, I’m so scared. I don’t want to be this person but when I think about it, it’s like it’s not bad to be one and I don’t freak out and it makes me worry

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