I kind of feel fake…if anyone has been through this phase also can you explain this to me the feeling of fake ? What does recovery looks like? Do we find our answers on the process? Do we start to feel love again? Do we start to feel more confident in ourselves and our relationship? What is it like? Do I have to keep on living like this my whole life in order to not catch ocd again in life later IF I RECOVER?
You have to sit with uncertainty. I’m not sure how because I’m a beginner but it’ll make you less anxious about it somehow. With recovery, you don’t really find the answers, they just teach you how to not freak out about uncertainty. It might make you not obsess over a thought. Yes, during recovery, I think you’ll feel better in a relationship. Not sure if my comment helped because I’m freaking out about myself but yeah
This might be triggering, but to be honest, many folks who struggle with ROCD but are going through a “good” period are not likely to be on this app or even really thinking about their obsessions. So it might feel lonely and feel like no one gets better, but in reality, many of the people in recovery are probably out there living their lives. So take comfort in that. Someday you might be too! I’ve experienced ups and downs with my ROCD, but when it’s not ROCD for me it’s contamination, health concerns, or existential OCD. I’m here to try to learn how to minimize ALL of those OCD patterns instead of just going from one to the next. I don’t know if that’s your experience too, but I think you’re in the right place. Recovery is possible! You might have to learn to live with doubts and not let them overtake you.
@Emmanonymous I know I know be patient like with uncertainty… I’ve been hearing this for at least 2 years now….but I just fear what if I’m not the one with those “success recovery stories” like tbh everyone who struggled with rocd particularly have married their partners live a living happy life have children with them. What if these things don’t happen with me even if I do the recovery work. Trust me I’m trying response prevention but it’s really hard. Sometimes sone questions hit me so hard that I’m just not able to say “ maybe maybe don’t “ kinda responses . And seeing my partner fully sure about me seeing him expressing love to me just puts in GUILT! SHAME! And a difficult situation. I’m at the stage where I’ve forgotten how love and calmness feels like. I’ve a problem with repeating lines words etc touching dirty objects im able to just disregard it and expose myself to them. But when it comes to my relationship I’m not able to just fully disregard those thoughts and feelings. I don’t know why! I hope you understand what I’m saying.
hey there, i totally get how that feeling of being 'fake' can really weigh on you. it's tough when ocd messes with your sense of reality and truth. just remember you're not alone in this fight, and feelings like these are a common part of the struggle many of us face with ocd. 💛 by the way, have you heard about this new ai-powered ocd therapy tool called 'unstuck?' i've been right where you are, and 'unstuck' (unstuckmyocd.com/try) was a game-changer recommended by my nocd therapist. i think it'll be especially helpful for you because the ai offers personalized support that can navigate you through those tough moments, offering reassurance just like an ocd therapist would. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really think it can help you because it's changed my life. lmk if you have qs or just want to talk more! <3
Hey guys I have rocd and I need advise or some words of encouragement When it comes to the feelings of oh I dont love my boyfriend even when I say I do it feels like im lying to myself and it makes me discouraged but I am too numb to fight it Its like my body doesn't want to accept I do Moments when I think oh I want to do something with my boyfriend my brain and feelings shut it down like oh its just going to turn into a routine or nothing he does will make you into him It just makes me depressed and numb because I love my boyfriend a lot, I could not imagine leaving him when I know all I want is him Sometimes my head tells me oh you are too young to have rocd (im 19) or there's always the grass greener on the other Side why settle But I love long term relationships and I want it with him, I chose to date him because it was something about him that was just different and I instantly connected with him We also been together for almost a year (anniversary on August 25) and sometimes my head tells me oh if you guys were together longer its rocd since a lot of people that are on the app I've seen had their relationship for years With anyone dealing with this and go through these episodes in recovery what is it that you do that helps you go forward with your partner and not feeling like giving up
When my soocd and rocd first hit hard, it really shattered my world and the kind of stability I had in life before the constant fear of losing the one I love. When I got my first job, I buried myself in the idea that I was too busy to deal with it anymore, it helped that I started school and got a pet hedgehog as well. But some nights it hits me that this hasn’t gone away at all, I don’t spend night after night or day after day stuck in the same thoughts anymore but I feel so cold inside like I’m not worth anything and like I don’t deserve the love and attraction I think I once felt for my sweet boyfriend. I feel like the fact that I can’t “feel” those feelings for him anymore that I’ve spent so long chasing means I don’t deserve him, I feel like even though the great anxiety has stopped I’m still trying to chase down that love feeling and how it “should” feel instead of just feeling it for what it is. I’m still terrified that if I let go of my walls that I’ll realize I don’t love him and lose him. It’s hurting me bad and making me resort to bad coping mechanisms. I’m starting to seek out validation again and craving that rush of infatuation when in reality the only one I want is my boyfriend. For almost a year and a half I obsessed about sexual attraction, it’s really affected my intimate life. I have self-esteem issues about my body, my “skills”, fear of not liking it enough and false expectations just all cause me to not feel much in my body and it makes me horribly sad. My boyfriend says I need to accept the possibility that the things I fear could be true and that I could be with someone else but it’s so hard because I really don’t want that but the longer I fight it the further away I feel from him. I didn’t think ocd could be this complex and cause such havoc on my life. I kind of miss when I felt extreme anxiety every day and had the same thoughts over and over because at least then it was easier to know it was my mind games at work. Now it just feels like I’m sabotaging myself daily by chasing the feelings of love I want. I don’t want to ruin this otherwise healthy relationship, my boyfriend is my best friend and I still want that. Can anyone relate to this? I feel like a lot of people just have the obsessiveness and I’m here trying to deal with the side effects of the after math and it makes me feel so alone
So Iv been doing better and im proud of myself. Everything seems to be going okay but I still feel numb. Its been almost 9 months and I barley feel happiness, love, anything pretty for that matter. I can only feel the negative ones like feeling blue from time to time. I just wonder if I’ll be “normal” again. I miss how I felt with my boyfriend. That overwhelming warmth I felt to the point i had yo stop myself from biting him because it was irresistible. It hurts that i cant feel but it also hurts that I might never be the same. How can I go on like this? What am I gonna do once we decide to live together or engaged ? Im always thinking of the future even as far as what it I go through postpartum depression. Im not asking for reassurance but these questions are on my mind everyday. Im so scared im going to go into that dark hole where i was 9 months ago. If anyone has some advice or someone who’s been going through this longer than I have can leave me comments on their experience id appreciate it.
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