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- Date posted
- 6y
shiv00shiv00
- Date posted
- 6y
Yeah I thought about it too but if we preferred the opposite sex all time and all those false memories or real memories,(I can't even differentiate at this point) are true than why loss of attraction and decreased libido. I can't understand what is happening.
helloworld287helloworld287
- Date posted
- 6y
guys, don’t lose hope. if it makes you this upset then how can it be you? everyday has been excruciating for me but he only thing that gets me through the day is the hope that i will return to myself and have the future with a beautiful husband and kids. it’s the only thing i’ve ever really wanted but i and you all can’t let this rob you of that. there’s hope we just can’t lost sight of it.
IdkIdk
- Date posted
- 6y
I remember in middle school my best friend was bi and I saw her with a girl and I just didn’t think anything of it. I was just like “okay cool” and continued to pay attention to boys. It’s so weird how this is happening to me as well. What scares me if that this whole thing just feels real like I’m actually lesbian and I’m denying it. Idk why, I never had feelings for girls. It was never natural to me. So wth you know. I never had and urge or desire. It’s so dumb. I once said to myself “okay I’m lesbian” and I got so scared that it felt real. And I was like panicking a bit on my own. But then I was back to question everything still. I just can’t accept because it can’t be true. There’s no real evidence but then I still look for some. And think about everything and I panic.
cnvcnv
- Date posted
- 6y
Honestly I couldn’t relate more. For the past 2-3 months I’ve been okay with intrusive thoughts and sensations. But this evening I had yet another groinal response to which I’ve learned to react like a fact, not instantly to jump to conclusions. Nevertheless, I still ruminate about things such as being bisexual my whole life and just now starting to recognize this in myself or that I would prefer vagina over penis. In reality, when I sincerely think of myself with a girl, it’s just a big nono
helloworld287helloworld287
- Date posted
- 6y
i’m just speaking from when i had this the first time but was able to snap out of it. it felt amazing to be comfortable in myself again and to go back to the person i always knew and i was comfortable with. there’s always another solution. don’t lose hope.
starboiklemstarboiklem
- Date posted
- 6y
Listen as someone that had that type of ocd,the ocd is driven by your FEAR of being lesbian, what you should do if you can is tell to yourself that you are a lesbian and accept it which is what you are about to do. That's great you move in the right direction,i also had fear that i may be gay and i said to myself ok you are gay it's over accept it,it was distressing but before i knew it ocd obsessions about being gay vanished. Did i turn gay? offcource no i was never gay i was simply afraid so don't try to tell yourself i am not a lesbian that's a compulsion, instead tell yourself you are a lesbian and accept it
IdkIdk
- Date posted
- 6y
I never really had to question it, I just would crush on boys and that was that you know. It was rare because most boys my ages are just the same and look the same. So I kinda stopped caring about them. But other than that I did like them. Now I feel like my attraction is for girls, like if my sexuality is changing. When that just doesn’t make sense. I know those feelings were true but then I chose to question and makes me think it wasn’t.
ANGEL xANGEL x
- Date posted
- 6y
Take a look at some documentaries about single women. There’s one by Cathy Burkes just come out (if you’re in uk). Maybe if you can’t accept yourself as bi or gay, accept yourself as single throughout life. It’s your choice to be with someone and even if you did like girls it doesn’t mean you have to be with one if that’s something you didn’t want.
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- Date posted
- 24w
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- Date posted
- 20w
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anonymouscookie
- Date posted
- 18w
so ocd and bisexuality
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