Givenup
- Date posted
- 1y
Hocd
Its making me feel like im noticing guys constantly, and giving me intrusive thoughts of being "bisexual" and intrusive images of men i see... i despise this so much...
deadmeatdeadmeat
- Date posted
- 1y
i think the noticing guys thing is just a pattern you’ve got yourself stuck in. or the anxiety probably causing your brain to think of these images and maybe for your body to feel things out of alignment for you. that really doesn’t mean you are attracted to them, and false attraction is real, too. of course, you can find someone attractive and not *be* attracted to them. i’ve had this too with girls, but i honestly don’t really care if i’m bi so it doesn’t bother me like that. maybe tell your brain you don’t care if you’re bi or not. try to convince the OCD it doesn’t matter either way, it’ll stop nagging at you
GivenupGivenup
- Date posted
- 1y
@deadmeat Thank you... the "false attraction is real" bit triggered me a little... but im trying my best... im getting triggered seeing stuff about repressed sexuality and it makes me gag just thinking about it...
deadmeatdeadmeat
- Date posted
- 1y
so sorry! i didn’t mean for it to trigger you, i was just saying you aren’t actually attracted to guys, it’s just ocd brain. if it makes you gag thinking about it, it’s really not you. i have really bad sexual ocd and i try to check myself a lot bc of it. but afterwards i feel repulsed. i know we’re still strangers but i PROMISE you aren’t alone at all in how you feel, and you WILL move on from this and be able to manage everything better
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geodrimilis
- Date posted
- 22w
Hocd is literally a clown in my head.
Like I can’t think straight. This is making me doubt everything I’ve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I don’t. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go “oh so you like it you must be gay” or the other one where I’m not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that I’ve had my whole life and my mind goes “see now you’re not into them you’re gay” like it’s so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or “a thing of the past”. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and it’s so weird. Today I’ve spent my whole day thinking about it like I’ve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just won’t let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
confused writer
- Date posted
- 21w
HOCD made you feel horn.y?
Like I feel geroinals ALL DAY and it’s stuck… I think I’m bi. But this still drives me nuts.
geodrimilis
- Date posted
- 13w
About hocd
This shit has to be one of the most confusing subtypes of ocd because no matter what you will never find clarity. When it started it wasn’t as bad and confusing because it was mostly anxiety. But when it started getting physical that’s when it got extremely confusing because I feel tension and fear when thinking of gay stuff but while testing I get arousal sensations so the big question is “if I am afraid of it how can my body respond as if I’m into it and if I’m into it how does my body respond with fear as if I’m not” and it’s endless. I wish I never started testing my arousal so I never started getting groinals to gay stuff in the first place. But there’s no going back now.
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