Struggling to access OCD therapy without Medicaid coverage in NC.

I have had ocd for along time I had no childhood no normal high school experiences no work experiences I’ve just been trying to get better all these years and appear normal to try to have some kind of similar normal kid experiences that everyone else was haveing instead of spending hours on simple homework riteing and reriteing till I eventually had to get a tutor to help me but I was still spending hours on the homework simple homework but my ocd made me feel like I was not riteing the letters rite and going over the same letters another thing is I was spending 2 hours in the shower doing order and symmetry stuff and getting that just rite feeling so I was busy wit ocd others were being a kid and it sucks im now 29 and still haveing issues I’m on ssi and make 500 something dollars a month there’s no security in that I can’t live on my own and can’t even begin to explain the life I’ve had cause of my ocd and a couple months ago I learned bout exposure and response prevention I read ppl posts and other ppl story’s that were exactly like mine doctors and therapists don’t understand ocd and that’s who was treating all of us and I just think that should be illegal for doctors to not understand and continue to prescribe medications when do they tell the patient there’s specific ocd help out there and refer them somewere else cause I’ve never had anyone tell me that I could’ve gotten help years ago the help that I actually needed I could’ve had a different life not filled with ocd but these hospitals and doctors and therapists chose to keep me and treat me when they shouldn’t have and now I’m trying to get help and can’t cause nowere in Tennessee accepts my insurance and there’s not even any inpatient ocd places here and it’s so common for ocd sufferers to not get help cause there’s just not alot of help out there it’s crazy I can’t get help even though I’m begging for it all cause of my insurance and it’s 40000 dollars a month at an inpatient place who the fuck can afford that this is all rediculous.

Can you please please please accept Medicaid soon. I feel I have no where else to go. I need help asap. I feel like I’m running out of options but I do my best to take care of myself day by day. But I’m so sick of my ocd and I really need to work with someone who understands and can help. I’ve been working so hard for so many years and still struggle….. please make this more available it’s so needed. The lack of accessibility to adequate services is really frustrating

I’m so done with not being able to afford help. I have a family and kids to take care of. I cannot afford therapy with my shitty insurance through work. I am so tired of suffering with anxiety from OCD. I hate OCD! I hate anxiety! It’s like you make too much or too little to get the damn help you need. Life is awful!