Username: accordinglytome

Date posted: 48w ago

How do you know you won’t act on your thoughts?

Okay so, I feel like I’m going to become a monster, I feel like I want to do my intrusive thoughts. But in my heart I know it’s wrong. I cry and cry because I’m scared I will listen to my thoughts. I have been praying every single day. I want to be a good person. I tell myself do good, and do not do evil. My intrusive thoughts are about hurting people, especially my siblings. It’s makes me cry. But I’m scared I will act on them. I want to be locked up so I don’t do anything. I’m 21 years old now, I still live with my parents. And I want to tell them so they know, and so I can get help, I just don’t know how to tell them, and I don’t want to scare them. I don’t want them to think I’m a monster. I don’t think I can do this anymore. Every time I see something horrible, my brain thinks I should do it. Please give me advise, what do I do

Harm OCD

Username: accordinglytomeaccordinglytome

Date posted: 48w ago

Is this even ocd ? Am i actually a monster ? What makes different from a person who actually has hurt people really bad? All these thoughts go throw my head. God please make it stop

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 48w ago

I am going through a very similar situation as you, it was and still is so hard but with the current ERP therapy I am going through it is helping if you haven’t looked into that yet I would recommend it! And I know it is very scary but when I told my parents about how I was feeling and explained to them they were there/ still are to help me through it and I pray that your parents do the same for you!! Just know you are not alone in this and I too am 22 years old and it hit me out of nowhere last december, you got this!! I hope this helped!

Username: accordinglytomeaccordinglytome

Date posted: 48w ago

@Anonymous how did you tell your parents? What did they do to help you? What where there reactions? Were they scared?

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 48w ago

@jessy1701 so I first suffered with derealization thinking nothing was real and honestly when it happened I started crying and that’s when I expressed to my mom and then later on I expressed it to my dad and they both reacted with love and support. I then started to have harm thoughts due to my existential ocd and when I expressed that to them I just explained all of my emotions and they still responded the same way with love and support as parents. And I pray your parents do the same, they’re your parents and they love you no matter what 💓

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 48w ago

@jessy1701 They then helped me by having me seek help and when I did it was truly helpful but it’s a lot to deal with and I totally understand!! I talked with a psychiatrist who then later diagnosed me with severe ocd and it brought me a lot of relief knowing a medical professional diagnosed me and I am now in therapy, and just know you are not alone you are not a bad person and that you are trying your best!!!

Username: accordinglytomeaccordinglytome

Date posted: 48w ago

@Anonymous did they ever ask what kind of thoughts u we’re u having ?

Username: accordinglytomeaccordinglytome

Date posted: 48w ago

@jessy1701 Like did they want u go into detail? Were u scared telling them ?

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 48w ago

@jessy1701 yes they did, but more in the way of wanting me to know that I can talk to them and they were not scared, and I expressed to them what my thoughts were and my fear and everything

Username: accordinglytomeaccordinglytome

Date posted: 48w ago

@Anonymous may I ask what thoughts that u shared with your parents ?? u don’t have to say if u don’t want to, I can totally understand and respect that

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 48w ago

@jessy1701 I was scared and still I get anxiety/scared to talk about my thoughts with them and it’s scary but when I do talk to them it helps because they are there and they understand what I am going through or atleast try to and provide support

Username: accordinglytomeaccordinglytome

Date posted: 48w ago

@Anonymous you are so brave!! And thank you so much for answering my questions! I pray I soon get the help and support that I need. Thank you once again.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 48w ago

@accordinglytome my thoughts were just more like “I would harm someone I love to prove this is real or I would harm myself too” and honestly it sucked/ still sucks to have those thoughts and when I told them they knew that I was going through a lot and wanted to provide support/ love in anyway they could and when I got diagnosed they understood even more because they looked into ocd / harm ocd and existential ocd and were able to provide more support for me

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 48w ago

@accordinglytome you are brave too!! remember that!! someone once posed what I was going through like this, “ our thoughts are like the ocean waves crashing on the shore and people a lot of the time without OCD have their backs faced against the waves just letting them hit them, whereas with people with OCD we turn and face the thoughts/waves coming right at us” and with time/ERP therapy and support those waves get less scary everytime you do face them! you are not alone and Gods got you 🫶🏼

Username: MelissaJohnson12MelissaJohns...

Date posted: 48w ago

hey there, that sounds incredibly tough and i'm really sorry you're feeling this way. your commitment to being a good person and protecting your loved ones shines through in your message and is truly commendable. it's clear this isn't you, and you're not a monster, this is OCD. by the way, have you heard about this new AI-powered OCD therapy tool called 'unstuck?' it was recommended to me by my NOCD therapist when i was in a similar situation. 'unstuck' (unstuckmyocd.com/try) can provide personalized step-by-step support when OCD gets difficult, it could help you handle the tough nights when intrusive thoughts become overwhelming. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really think it can help you because it's changed my life. lmk if you have Qs or just want to talk more! <3

Username: Anonymous:,(

Date posted: 3y ago

I’m super aware of intrusive thoughts and they don’t go away and I don’t know how to make them go away or how to deal with them. And last night I had an urge and was almost going to act on one and that terrified me. I came home and the same thought arhat scared me was still in my mind and it scares me. I’m scared I’m going to lose control and become a bad person because I just don’t know what to do about the thoughts and how I’m capable of these things. I even contemplated about admitting myself to a mental hospital to get help because it’s getting bad and I don’t know how to control it. But I’m scared of doing that because what if I just end up staying in there for the rest of my life. What should I do I’m really scared and worried I may never get better and this is it for me.

Username: LadySecret🧚🏻‍♀️

Date posted: 1y ago

I don’t feel like I’m genuinely good

I’m so scared that all these thoughts and obsessions with follow me into adult hood. I’ve already had these thoughts and worries for years now, and I’m only 14. I don’t want to live a life constantly worrying about being a good person, or having those most disgusting intrusive thoughts. I have been trying so hard to accept these thoughts, but I just feel like bad person. They come way too easily to me, and I feel like if I don’t get a wave of fear when I get those thoughts, it makes me a monster.

Username: jcx_11

Date posted: 24w ago

I’m scared

Today I realized I’m actually really scared of becoming a bad person. I’ve been dealing with symptoms of OCD for a few years now, or maybe they were always there and i never knew what it was. I’m scared that i’ll eventually become a bad person. I’m scared I’ll hurt someone one day, even though i have no violent urges or tendencies. I’m scared i’ll be a pedophile even though i have no attraction to kids. I’m scared that i’ve done something really bad to someone and i don’t remember. I’m just scared and I wish I could tell people my thoughts but i know it’s hard to understand intrusive thoughts when you don’t have them.

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