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If anyone ever posted you on the internet then that’s revenge porn and illegal (in UK at least) so don’t worry girl. Sugar daddies are nothing to be ashamed of (as long as you’re safe!), so many girls do it.
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It’s very unlikely to happen but I understand your fear❤️ the likelihood of it happening is minuscule, the chance of anyone you know seeing it would be minuscule also. Please don’t dwell on the past, what you did is not unusual or disgusting at all!!! Have you seen a therapist? This sounds like something that they could easily help you with, they can also address your obsessive thoughts around it. OCD isn’t like normal shame and regret - it cuts so much deeper and makes you bring your past into the future, thinking that it will one day come back to haunt you. Confessing to future partners won’t help and will make it worse. Your past has nothing to do with the present. ❤️❤️❤️ my thoughts are with you. I also have trouble with leaving the past behind. It’s why I’m seeking therapy. Xx
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One of my favourite quotes: “The past can hurt. But the way I see it, you can either run from it, or learn from it.”
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Yes I’ve heard that quote before I love it but I always think my past is an exception to quotes and that no one is as bad as me. I have a controlling mother who I developed a compulsion of confessing to. My depressing and mental health got to a point I basically attacked her after she provoked me verbally like she’s done for my whole life. I feel horrible and even though she hit my head back hard after some time every time she has a ditsy moment or complains of a headache I fear I did something to her. She pulled a stunt that she was going to the hospital but just stayed at a friends I think just to worry me. In Dubai I got isolated after losing my job and my boyfriend made me feel like a housewife. All that isolation messed with my mental health and when she was controlling me back home I just snapped. I scared myself. I can’t hit my mother ? I apologized and we are working on it but my ocd makes me not forget the past no matter what
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Same in the US. But just the thought of it happening to me and the embarrassment of it would kill me. And once something is posted you never really get rid of it. The sugar daddy thing was something a friend told me to try when I was in debt but they just treated me like a prostitute and I feel like a whore. I feel the need to obsess this past to every partner I have and I fear I don’t deserve anyone because of it. I read a forum online about a guy asking if it’s ok his girlfriend used to be a sugar baby and other guys commented no they would never date a girl who would do such a thing. Everything around these themes are really triggering for me.
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I’m 26 now and ocd started when I was 14. I was in therapy on and off for 10 years. I went to Dubai for a year, fell deeply in love, then the relationship turned emotionally abusive and I found out he is married with two kids. Before I found this out he sent me back home to the states for a bit. The breakup triggered my ocd again. I’m now starting to work again and waiting to get insurance to go back on meds and continue therapy but for now I’m on this app. Thank you for your comment ❤️
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- 23w
I was looking up stuff about kinks, because my friend is trying to help me "get out there", and I took the bdsm test to see where I land on it. I got 100% vanilla, and I was a little embarassed so I decided to Google things like "is it normal to not have a lot of kinks" or "what % of the population is into kink" and when I scrolled down a bit, I clicked on one of the little suggestion things with the arrow that said "are men more prone to enjoying kink than women" and it revealed a blurb from the website that said that men are in fact more inclined to kink, but also mentioned that it also means they're more inclined to p*dophellia, which sort of set off all these questions in my head of like "Wait so if p*dophellia is just a kink, does that make it more likely that I have it? Because scientenists still don't know what causes it so what if events in my childhood led up to me having it to some extent" and I started kind of going down this internal rabbit hole of trying to figure out how likely it is that I have it or some form of it bc if it's just a kink and not a mental illness than it feels more feasible? Idk I'm a woman so ik it's not AS common in us but it's still possible. I'm doing a little better with redirecting my attention and cooling my anxiety but I had an onslaught of intrusive images before falling asleep like I used to have when I first started experiencing this fear. It's been really catapulting me back to the beginning and I find that I'm ruminating on when it started and if it really means I'm a p or not. I know it's classic ocd but it's hard when it doesn't feel that way ;-; anyway, I'm too scared to Google bc i know it'll be a form of reassurance but also I'm just scared of having anything related to that in my search history so I just thought I'd post here. Anyone else have conflicting thoughts like this?
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- 21w
I am a girl's in my twenties. I got diagnosed with OCD last year. I have a boyfriend, sadly we're long distance right now. I've liked boys all my life. It's very difficult to sustain intimacy in a long distance relationship. Sometimes I have intimate calls with my boyfriend and it's nice. Other times, however, (and I am not proud of it) I do watch porn. I started watching porn when I was 16. I've tried to quit it many times but every couple of weeks I go back to it. And as everyone knows, one of the MANY problems with it is that your brain will always ask for more. More taboo things, more explicit things. I have a daddy kink. I've roleplayed with my boyfriend and watched porn of this kink. Now, the thing is that my brain keeps telling me that I won't orgasm unless I think of little girls being ab*sed. I've never looked for that on the internet, I never want to either. I am under EXTREME DISTRESS, because what my brain tells me feels SO REAL, and it's like my pleasure gets blocked and that contributes to me thinking my brain must be right. It wasn't like this before. I want to go back. I'm scared it will be like this forever now.
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- 19w
‼️Sexual Content‼️ I have a new fear that I have a paraphiliac disorder and google says that people who do have these disorders experience distress about them which scares me so bad because I feel distressed about the potential of having one so isn’t that like the same thing? I’m scared that I already have one, and the distress I’m experiencing isn’t OCD but instead a side effect of being paraphiliac. I hate this Also what’s even worse is that I don’t even feel that anxious. Like yes I am anxious but not as much as I feel like I should be and I’m relatively calm. I feel like I should be more anxious for it to be OCD and I should be more anxious when faced with the threat of being paraphiliac and even though I am anxious, it’s no where near as bad as it should be or has been in the past. What does that say about me? (I don’t want reassurance, all I want is advice to help me cope through OCD spikes) I’m so scared. I don’t want any of this. I don’t want to do paraphiliac things I don’t want to do anything that they do because those things make me uncomfortable but I feel like that’s what someone with a paraphiliac disorder would say. I am so f*cked
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