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Hocd and sleep
Have you had nights where you didnt sleep completely because of the hocd ? I didnt sleep the whole night yesterday đ
Have you had nights where you didnt sleep completely because of the hocd ? I didnt sleep the whole night yesterday đ
The first two weeks of my episode I didnât sleep and would cry. The last few days Iâve been dreading sleeping because of it!
Yes back in September I had a terrible time of it. My fiancĂ© was on nights and I just couldnt sleep intrusive thoughts were flooding my brain. Whenever I closed my eyes, I was scared to sleep as I knew when I woke up I would be so anxious. I had a breakdown and was signed off work for 4 weeks. It gets better I sleep so much better now. I like to think that it is part of the healing journey of finally facing ocd once and for all. I really urge you seek help and support as soon as I started talking to my partner and mum I started to feel a bit more free. I seeked out help from a therapist and in the space of 4 months, Iâve returned to work, I have booked my wedding venue and am getting married in 2025. Iâm still scared and I have thoughts come in but itâs getting easier. Find someone who you trust speak to them you may be surprised by their reactions. Take sleep as it comes, donât over think it try and get a little routine if you can. You can survive this, keep pushing even if itâs just little steps a day.
Yes, is horrible but we have to be strong, always remember, when wake up"well I had a bad night but I chose donât make it relevant" and I know how hard it could be but thatâs the way. Donât make it relevant!
Yesss!!! Me currently. I have such terrible anxiety and nausea and I havenât been able to sleep peacefully at all omg
@Vee <3 I spent the whole night awake yesterday im so depressed đ
@star1232 So am I. I feel so unsure and so confused. Like Iâm literally drowning. Iâm sending you so much love though! Youâve got this. Please stay strong!
@Vee <3 I feel attraction and groinals from every member of same sex đ and the urges felt so so real
@Vee <3 Sending you so much love and hope too đđ»
Iâll cut a long story short⊠SOCD/ HOCD was one of the first themes I got when I was a teenager. The first one was health but I didnât know that was OCD at the time. Anyway, I have had SOCD for 11 years. Sometimes it leaves me alone and it feels like Iâm my own self again! Donât get me wrong it lingers but I manage. But⊠IT IS BACK!!! My head is telling me that I am a lesbian and that I need to just admit it. I hate it. I have a boyfriend who I love unconditionally and this has just sprung out of a dream I had -.- I donât want to be a lesbian! The groinal responses have always been the worst. It started when I was around 16, I woke up one morning and my brain just said âyouâre a lesbianâ, as you can imagine I freaked out, panic attack and cried. Then, my brain starts looking into my childhood⊠well itâs had a field day. When I was around 9 my friend showed me girls kissing on YouTube and then I suppose I got addicted to it. I then used to play on Habbo and walk up to girls and say âkissesâ etc. my brain is now saying that this is evidence that Iâm gay. I DONT WANT TO BE A LESBIAN!!! I have no issues with gay people, I just donât want to be gay myself. Sometimes, when the thoughts come in I donât seem to get anxious but I get groinals and that freaks me out! I just want peace. I hate this. I get so many different themes. Now itâs this one and I just want to crawl under my duvet, sleep until theyâre gone but then I end up dreaming about it!!!
Anyone else with HOCD get thoughts of like "people in denial try to distract themselves" or anything along those lines when just trying to move on from the thoughts. Having a pretty bad episode this morning at least anxiety wise.
Im just wonderingâŠhow many hours a day do you spend thinking about your fear. I spend around 3-9 hours or sometimes more thinking about sexual orientation but i still doubt that i have hocd. I feel like im just in denial and im so scared.
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