Hocd and sleep

The first two weeks of my episode I didn’t sleep and would cry. The last few days I’ve been dreading sleeping because of it!

Yes back in September I had a terrible time of it. My fiancé was on nights and I just couldnt sleep intrusive thoughts were flooding my brain. Whenever I closed my eyes, I was scared to sleep as I knew when I woke up I would be so anxious. I had a breakdown and was signed off work for 4 weeks. It gets better I sleep so much better now. I like to think that it is part of the healing journey of finally facing ocd once and for all. I really urge you seek help and support as soon as I started talking to my partner and mum I started to feel a bit more free. I seeked out help from a therapist and in the space of 4 months, I’ve returned to work, I have booked my wedding venue and am getting married in 2025. I’m still scared and I have thoughts come in but it’s getting easier. Find someone who you trust speak to them you may be surprised by their reactions. Take sleep as it comes, don’t over think it try and get a little routine if you can. You can survive this, keep pushing even if it’s just little steps a day.

Yes, is horrible but we have to be strong, always remember, when wake up"well I had a bad night but I chose don’t make it relevant" and I know how hard it could be but that’s the way. Don’t make it relevant!

Yesss!!! Me currently. I have such terrible anxiety and nausea and I haven’t been able to sleep peacefully at all omg