Why do I have no emotion towards this. I want to cry about this but I feel as if there’s no emotion there. This is such a difficult time for me especially as I’m a school teacher. I’m struggling daily. My ocd of being very nasty and I’m being triggered all the time. Can anyone please talk to me and educate me more on POCD and how it can latch on to anything or even anyone
I’m so sorry. I definitely go through periods where I feel worried that I’m not caring enough, not being able to cry and showing emotion. I think that maybe it’s your body needing a break from being in defense mode. Not showing emotion like crying doesn’t mean that you are accepting these thoughts as your own. You said you are a school teacher, you probably care about what you do very much, and ocd is latching onto that. It’s a very difficult theme to deal with and I’m sorry to hear you’re having a difficult time. Don’t give up, you will make it through this.
So sorry. What does your therapist have you do for erp?
@68273 I’m not in therapy atm. I’ve had therapy with NOCD in the past and was actually living my life without any relapse for over a year but at Christmas time I suffered with suicidal ocd and as of 2 weeks ago POCD is new to me and I’m finding it very debilitating and I don’t know what to do about it
@Vanderpoll1 So sorry. The thing w ocd is that it’s chronic and as you know can switch themes. POCD is so painful especially if you are a teacher. But you have the tools to rise above any ocd theme.
@68273 Thank you loads
love is not lust, you arent lusting after kids just cuz you have these compulsive intrusive thoughts
Hey there, I really feel for you. Your struggle as a school teacher being constantly triggered by OCD is palpable, and it's tough feeling like there's no emotion left. I've also dealt with feeling empty and it's incredibly difficult, so you're not alone. 😕 One thing that's helped me when I'm wrestling with my OCD is this AI OCD therapy tool named "unstuck." (unstuckmyocd.com/try). I was introduced to it by folks in my OCD support group and man, I wish I'd known about it earlier. This tool could be especially beneficial for you due to your recurrent triggers while teaching - it essentially functions like an OCD therapist providing personalized step-by-step strategies to guide you when things get tough. 💪 Please feel free to ask if you have any questions about the app or if you'd just like to chat more.
POCD Trigger: I really hate this disorder and I don’t know how much longer I can do this for. I work at a daycare and I’m constantly bombarded with these thoughts that I have hurt a child or even molested them. It is the worst feeling and part of me knows I’d never do that but my OCD really does take over my life. Today, for instance, I was rocking on of the children and I rocked them for two seconds by accident and it told me I molested them. And when I when to pick them up to put them in the play area my hand accidente touched the front of their leg and it told me again I had hurt them, a similar thing happened with another child today where I was feeding them and I accidentally rocked them and I was now a molester. It really is the hardest disorder to deal with. And I hate how it attacked my occupation, I love working with kids and child psychology and everything, but my ocd is really affecting everything.
POCD TW. Need some help. Hey guys! I hope everyone is doing well as of lately. I’ve been doing ~decent~ better than I was say 4-5 months ago. Due to the Lexapro I’ve been on it’s definitely made a dent. But everyday is still a struggle. Lately I feel as if I’m faking all of my POCD. Everything started with one particular child. I don’t know exactly what, but it started to make me feel like I had feelings or something like that. I hated it. I’ve been an anxious mess since. The thing that’s bothering me is I don’t see much online about people’s OCD particularly targeting one person. I also have it about other children in general. But it’s heavily influenced by one. There is an hour that goes by that I’m not thinking something about the child, sexual or not sexual it can just be general things. My thoughts tell me I want to be around this child, they tell me to walk by her so she will notice me. I hate this and want this to end. I want to go back to myself in September when I was going on dates with girls my age, and thinking about that. I would NEVER hurt a child. Never wanted too. I just need support. I went to a OCD specialist back in January who told me she definitely thought I had OCD. I haven’t been able to go back because of my work schedule. But I want too. I just want to feel normal. Can anyone relate? Idk. I’m just depressed again.
I’ve been struggling with POCD since I was 18 years old, I am now 22. It’s terrifying how quickly it switched from my ocd focusing on a fear of pregnancy, to magical thinking ocd, and then to POCD. I’ve been suffering with it so much so that I’ve convinced myself and have lost friends due to confession compulsions. I have major issues with ruminating, and it frequently goes hand in hand with my relationship OCD and my Suicidal thoughts OCD. (Worrying my partner will leave me because what if I am, and that I can’t take this anymore so I have to __) I often experience things like shame, guilt, grief, and intense emotional pain that manifests itself into nausea and heartburn and sometimes headaches. I’ve tried everything, so this app really is my last resort. I wish to find community here, to know that what I’m facing I’m not alone in my battles with. I know that I’m not, so why does my brain work so hard telling me I am? I love children, I always have. But I get so afraid of being near them. I want to get better. I want to be able to spend time with my family again.
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